G\u00f6n\u00fcl umman\u0131n\u0131n h\u00e2lelendi\u011fi, h\u00e2relendi\u011fi yerde duran, durdurulan bir g\u00f6nl-\u00fc hazindir i\u00e7im. H\u00e2lin aynas\u0131na ezel gelir, mazi vurur, istikb\u00e2l bakar. Ama sen beni hep ilerde zannedersin. Hep y\u00fcr\u00fcyor, ko\u015fuyor, ilerliyor g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn. Oysa \u00e2n\u0131md\u0131r benim g\u00f6n\u00fcl \u00e7eperim. Duamd\u0131r \u015fimdim. Durdu\u011fum yer mazinin g\u00f6lgesi, istikb\u00e2lin \u015fafa\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Ben sadece \u00e2na \u00fcflerim.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n
Ey dost! Bana h\u00e2l, sana istikb\u00e2l aynalar. Hicran\u0131ma h\u00fckmeden bir \u00e2lemdesin orada. Durulmaya ba\u015flayan sular \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r seni bana. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, gelirsin. Kalbime h\u00fckmedersin. Beni ihtizaza getirirsin, kimbilir!<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n
Demlenmeye b\u0131rakmal\u0131 belki hayalleri. Bir ak\u015fam \u00fczeri merhaba diyebilir o zaman. Belki \u00fczecek seni, belki \u00e7ok ge\u00e7 geldi diyeceksin. Ama sab\u0131rla koruk \u00fcz\u00fcm olur demi\u015f atalar. Umulur ki yeni hisler girer muhayyilene, yeni fark\u0131ndal\u0131klar a\u00e7ar g\u00f6n\u00fcl bah\u00e7ende. Yeni \u00e7i\u00e7ekler a\u00e7t\u0131r\u0131rs\u0131n i\u00e7inde. Sabr\u0131nla ye\u015ferecek bahar\u0131n, sab\u0131rla gelecek ad\u0131mlar\u0131n..<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n
Elini uzatsan dalgalan\u0131r belki yine, tutamazs\u0131n. K\u0131r\u0131lsa k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r, tutunamazs\u0131n. Bir mum yakars\u0131n g\u00fcnd\u00fcze, g\u00fcne\u015fe, ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klara dair. Oldu\u011fun h\u00e2linde duramazs\u0131n. Bir renk olur, d\u00fc\u015fer teknene. Dalga dalga yayars\u0131n i\u00e7ine. Ya da bir nota olur, d\u00fc\u015fer kanununa, tamburuna, neyine\u2026 \u0130\u00e7li i\u00e7li okur, duyamazs\u0131n. Nihavend, Hicaz olur, dinlersin. \u0130ki damla g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 olur nihayetinde. \u0130plik iplik s\u00fczersin yanaklar\u0131ndan.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n
Kendini bulmak, tan\u0131mak, kendine dokunmak aynada, bu kadar zor olmamal\u0131 asl\u0131nda. Bazen kendinsin g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn, bazen ruhun, dostun, labirentlerin haddizat\u0131nda. Ama ne olursa olsun y\u0131lmamal\u0131 yolculuktan. Yol kimi zaman maveray\u0131 getirecek \u00f6n\u00fcne, kimi zaman \u00e2suman\u0131, v\u00e2veyl\u00e2y\u0131.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n
Her haluk\u00e2rda sonsuzluktan bir damla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrecek \u00f6n\u00fcndeki ayna. Ve sen eline al\u0131p g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyeceksin.
Baht\u0131na ne \u00e7\u0131karsa\u2026<\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
G\u00f6n\u00fcl umman\u0131n\u0131n h\u00e2lelendi\u011fi, h\u00e2relendi\u011fi yerde duran, durdurulan bir g\u00f6nl-\u00fc hazindir i\u00e7im. H\u00e2lin aynas\u0131na ezel gelir, mazi vurur, istikb\u00e2l bakar. Ama sen beni hep ilerde zannedersin. Hep y\u00fcr\u00fcyor, ko\u015fuyor, ilerliyor g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn. Oysa \u00e2n\u0131md\u0131r benim g\u00f6n\u00fcl \u00e7eperim. Duamd\u0131r \u015fimdim. Durdu\u011fum yer mazinin g\u00f6lgesi, istikb\u00e2lin \u015fafa\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Ben sadece \u00e2na \u00fcflerim. Ey dost! Bana h\u00e2l, sana istikb\u00e2l aynalar. Hicran\u0131ma…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":15355,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[122,144,168],"tags":[172,177],"class_list":["post-1784","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-aralik22","category-edeb","category-havva-kucuk-konur","tag-aralik2022","tag-edebiyat","category-122","category-144","category-168","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/12\/pexels-photo-2767814.jpeg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1784"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1784"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1784\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15568,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1784\/revisions\/15568"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/15355"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1784"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1784"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1784"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}