Ey, g\u00f6vdem yerlerde, ruhum Sen\u2019de\u2026 Toprak idim\u2026 Yine topra\u011fa kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p gidece\u011fim\u2026 Tende c\u00e2n idim\u2026 Bedende Cih\u00e2n\u2026 A\u015fka hasret\u2026 Ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa hikmet\u2026 L\u00e2kin\u2026 O g\u00fcn\u2026 Ukb\u00e2ya nazar eyler iken son ihanetim ile d\u00fcnyay\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131verece\u011fim\u2026 Ninova\u2019da dalga dalga dalgalanan hazin bir ezan idim\u2026 Basra\u2019da basiret erk\u00e2n\u0131n\u0131n ink\u00e2r edilemez efk\u00e2r\u0131 idim. Ma\u011faralara kapanan ebr\u00e2r\u0131n g\u00f6\u011f\u00fc an\u0131msatan olmazsa olmaz esr\u00e2r\u0131 idim. Kum\u2019un unutulmaz tell\u00e2li\u2026 \u015eam diy\u00e2r\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fclbahar\u0131\u2026 Sana\u2019ya ula\u015fan o kutlu do\u011fumun kanatlar\u0131\u2026 T\u00fbr da\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ayak basan\u0131n hafakan\u0131\u2026 Ben, \u0130rem bah\u00e7elerinde yapraklar\u0131 Hud\u00e2\u2019ya a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f nergislerin r\u00e2yih\u00e2s\u0131\u2026 Unutulmaz divanlarda konaklam\u0131\u015f b\u00fclb\u00fcllerin a\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131\u2026 Ben. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fc Hayber y\u00fcklere. M\u00fcn\u00e2caatlar ile serpilece\u011fim, o g\u00fcn\u2026 Mekke\u2019de muhim, Med\u00eene\u2019de mukim Can Muhammed Mustafa\u2019n\u0131n m\u00fcjdeledi\u011fi hakiki din ile sel\u00e2mete erece\u011fim\u2026 Perhiz ettim nice nimetlere! Zaman\u0131 geldi\u011finde fakirlerin a\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 ben olaca\u011f\u0131m. Yemin ederim ki (nasip eder isen) zaman\u0131 gelince ayaklar\u0131m yal\u0131n, ba\u015f\u0131m a\u00e7\u0131k, libas\u0131m y\u0131rt\u0131k p\u00fcrt\u00fck Hak dinin hazinelerini yine Sen\u2019in \u015f\u00e2n\u0131n u\u011fruna a\u00e7l\u0131k \u00e7ekenlere da\u011f\u0131taca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n
E\u011fer bir g\u00fcn ad\u0131ma sal\u00e2 verirlerse sak\u0131n ola ki aldanmas\u0131nlar \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcme! \u00d6lmemek i\u00e7in g\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcp gidenim\u2026 Sonsuzluk arzusuna yenik d\u00fc\u015fenim\u2026 Ne ad\u0131m kals\u0131n\u2026 Ne olmayan varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u2026 S\u00f6z\u00fcm ile \u00f6z\u00fcne vas\u0131l olanlard\u0131r geriye b\u0131rakt\u0131klar\u0131m. C\u00e2zibedar olduklar\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131na varsam da ne malda g\u00f6z\u00fcm vard\u0131 ne de ge\u00e7ti\u011fim yollarda \u00f6n\u00fcme serilen tahtlarda\u2026 Ne canlara\u2026 Ne cananlara\u2026 Ne d\u00fcnyada\u2026 Ne ukbada\u2026 Ne cehennem diledim ne de cenneti istedim. Vars\u0131n cennetin g\u00fczelli\u011fi ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n olsun\u2026 R\u0131za\u2019ya raz\u0131 olmakt\u0131 hedefim. Yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015f isem bunun hesab\u0131n\u0131 yapmayalar\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201eElest\u00fc Birabbikum?\u201c g\u00fcn\u00fcne \u015fahit olsam da, unutulgan\u0131m\u2026 Sahipsizlerin bar\u0131na\u011f\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131m. \u00d6ks\u00fczlerin sevinci\u2026 Yaral\u0131lar\u0131n tabibi olaca\u011f\u0131m\u2026 Olaca\u011f\u0131m\u2026 Da\u011flar y\u0131k\u0131lsa da, milletler t\u00fcrl\u00fc t\u00fcrl\u00fc felaketlerde ezilseler de, devletler kar\u015f\u0131 konulmaz depremler ge\u00e7irseler de, hakikat yedi cihan \u015fahsi ihtiraslar u\u011fruna kirletilip gizlense de\u2026 Sessizce\u2026 K\u0131rmadan\u2026 D\u00f6kmeden\u2026 H\u00fckmetmeden\u2026 G\u00fcnahlara ra\u011fmen Hak bildi\u011fim hakikatleri vicdanlar\u0131n \u00f6dlerini yerlerinden koparcas\u0131na hayk\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m! Gaflete ba\u011f\u0131ml\u0131 cesetleri bitip t\u00fckenmek bilmeyen uykular\u0131ndan uyand\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m\u2026 G\u00f6r\u00fcnmeden\u2026 Sezilmeden\u2026 Sen\u2019i bencileyin\u2026<\/p>\n
Elli yerimden kopart\u0131ld\u0131m! Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir yaprak par\u00e7as\u0131 olayd\u0131m, zemheri \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131nda. Ne olurdu? G\u00fcl\u00fcn rayihas\u0131n\u0131 yedi cihana takdim ederlerken k\u0131yametleri kopard\u0131lar. Ne ki? Misk-\u00fc anberin, hasretimdir, zira! S\u0131\u011famam s\u00f6zlere! C\u00fcmleten \u00e2lem c\u00fcmlelere! Tan\u0131maz dertler, devam\u0131! Kabullenemez a\u011fy\u00e2r esrar\u0131m\u0131! Ad\u0131ma taziye verenler bilemediler \u015f\u00e2n-\u0131 \u015ferefimi!<\/p>\n
Hem \u015fan hem de \u015feref idim! Hem hikmet, hem izzet! Hem bereket hem de himmeti ekmel nimet! Ben hem do\u011fu idim\u2026 Hem bat\u0131. Hem yaz idim hem de maalesef k\u0131\u015f idim. Ben hem ink\u00e2r hem de iman\u2026 Ben\u2026 Ben sendim\u2026 Sen\u2019de ben(de) idin\u2026<\/p>\n
Delicesine\u2026 Delirticisine\u2026 Arzulad\u0131m Sen\u2019i\u2026 Ad\u0131m ad\u0131m\u2026 Can ciger, par\u00e7aland\u0131m. P\u00e2re p\u00e2re, sinem, g\u00f6rg\u00fcs\u00fcz z\u00fcl\u00fcmlere tak\u0131ld\u0131m. Ne \u00e7are, hedefsizim! Mesnetsiz kap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m sihirler. Zirdelilerin muhbiri ben miyim?!<\/p>\n
Baht\u0131ma kederler birikmi\u015f. Duyur, azametli ruhundan \u00fcfleneni ruhuma, ne olur\u2026 G\u00f6zlerim Sen\u2019den ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmeye \u0131srar ederken nas\u0131l hay\u0131flanamam?! Hakk\u2019\u0131na yak\u0131\u015f\u0131r \u015fekilde bilenemeyensin! Emir, Sen! T\u00f6vbe olsun, k\u00fcfre \u00e7ekildim yine ben. \u00d6\u011fretiden \u0131raks\u0131n! L\u00e2kin m\u00e2nas\u0131z olamazs\u0131n! S\u00fcmme ha\u015f\u00e2\u2026 M\u00e2n\u00e2n tart\u0131\u015f\u0131lamaz! \u0130nsan\u0131n fehmini aciz b\u0131rakan Sen\u2019sin ki \u201eLem yelid ve lem y\u00fbled\u201c sin. Hem El-Bas\u00eerat\u00fc\u2019l-Basar\u2026 Hem ve lem yek\u00fcn leh\u00fb k\u00fcf\u00fcven ehad!<\/p>\n
Sabah vakti, z\u00e2t-\u0131 ub\u00fbdiyetine yakla\u015facakm\u0131\u015f gibi yalvar\u0131p yakaranlar\u0131n olabilseydim! Gama ve kedere isyan edercesine \u201eAllahu ekber!\u201c deyip g\u00fcrleseydim! Kahire\u2019de k\u0131yama durmu\u015f a\u2019m\u00e2 imamlar\u0131n m\u00fcbarek seslerine makam-\u0131 rast olayd\u0131m. M\u00fcstakim duyursa idim Sen\u2019i, h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 belirtmeksizin.<\/p>\n
Bildim\u2026 Yine bildim\u2026 Yeniden bildirildim\u2026 Sana olan samimiyetim tan\u0131nmamak kayd\u0131 ile! \u0130stemedim, bilinmeyi! Ne alk\u0131\u015f bekledim, ne de tezah\u00fcrat! Zira Sen\u2019i anar iken\/yazar iken g\u00f6steri\u015f etmekten yine Sana s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131m! G\u00fcnahlar\u0131n binbir t\u00fcrl\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fasam da\u2026 Riyakarl\u0131\u011fa ve ihanete a\u00e7\u0131k olarak yaratm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n aciz bendeni\u2026 Ka\u00e7t\u0131m ka\u00e7abildi\u011fim kadar\u2026 Hem insanlardan\u2026 Hem ins ve cinden\u2026<\/p>\n
Ya Ekram el-Ekram\u00een\u2026 Ya E\u015fher el-E\u015fhar\u00een\u2026 Y\u00fccesin! Kalplere me\u015fhursun\u2026 Baht\u0131m kapal\u0131 olsa da Z\u00e2t\u2019in a\u015fk\u0131na beni tan\u0131nmayanlardan eyle! Aciz s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerim ile y\u00fcz binlerin virdlerinde olursam olay\u0131m\u2026 Beni Sana olan samimiyetimden mahrum eyleme\u2026 Ne anama\u2026 Ne babama\u2026 Ne c\u00e2na\u2026 Ne cih\u00e2na samimiyet g\u00f6sterebildim. A\u00e7l\u0131klar ile kavrulan al\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n tekiyim, Bilen\u2019sin. \u0130sterim\u2026 Dilenirim\u2026 Dilenmenin usul\u00fcn\u00fc bilemesem de\u2026 Ne olur\u2026 Sana samimi olay\u0131m, \u015fimdiye kadar olmak istedi\u011fim gibi\u2026<\/p>\n
Hayalimdir, ebedi, mir\u00e2c. Mukaddes yolculu\u011fa \u015fevkim Sen olas\u0131n! Kasavetim azb u azap! Da\u011f\u0131l\u0131p gitsin mahm\u00fbriyetim. Tart\u0131\u015f\u0131lmaz ezel\u00ee mevkiin. Kudreten lill\u00e2h a\u015fk\u0131m Sen olas\u0131n. Ma\u011ffiret et s\u00f6zlerime, tart\u0131\u015f\u0131lmazs\u0131n. Ke\u015ffedilemez a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, a\u011fr\u0131ma a\u011fr\u0131 m\u0131s\u0131n? Dilim d\u00eenim, h\u00fcrr\u00fcn al\u00e2 h\u00fbr\u2026 Ba\u015f g\u00f6z \u00fcst\u00fcne! \u0130ki b\u00fckl\u00fcm zirdelin ben olay\u0131m! Zaman ve mek\u00e2n mefhumunu, mutlak Bill\u00e2hsin, \u00f6lmeden evvel s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131p atabilse idim\u2026 Yand\u0131m oof\u2026<\/p>\n
Kabul buyur, l\u00fctfen. \u0130\u015ftiyak\u0131ms\u0131n. Aruz aruz arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m Sen\u2019sin! Beste beste beytim\u2026 Irzlar\u0131na ge\u00e7iler, tane tane idi \u015fiirlerim\u2026 K\u0131vran\u0131yorum, neredesin? Yand\u0131 yanaca\u011f\u0131 kadar bedenim. Yeti\u015fsin ufkuma kafiyelere d\u00f6k\u00fclen \u015fefkatin. Kafiyemsin!<\/p>\n
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