Karanl\u0131k koridorlar\u0131n sonunu g\u00f6remezsiniz bazen. Her t\u00fcnelin sonundaki \u0131\u015f\u0131k bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc gelmez. \u0130nsan dertlenir, kederlenir, yaln\u0131zl\u0131k ve h\u00fczn\u00fcn binbir t\u00fcrl\u00fc halini konuk eder ruhunda. \u00c7aresizli\u011fin s\u00fck\u00fbtu iner \u00fczerine.<\/p>\n
“\u015eeb-i yeld\u00e2y\u0131 m\u00fcneccimle muvakkit ne bilir<\/p>\n
M\u00fcbtel\u00e2-y\u0131 gama sor kim geceler ka\u00e7 saat..\u201d dedi\u011fi gibi S\u00e2bit\u2019in… Gam saatleri uzad\u0131k\u00e7a uzar, dakikalar demlene demlene ge\u00e7er. Ve insan sessiz gecelerinde bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k arar. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir s\u00f6z, s\u00fcr\u00fbr dolu bir sessizlik, tevekk\u00fcl bur\u00e7lar\u0131ndan bir nefes belki.<\/p>\n
Her \u015feyin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve karanl\u0131\u011fa dair s\u00f6zleri ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanlarda, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir i\u015ftahla her yere, her \u015feye sinen kesafete, bazen bir tek s\u00f6z yeter. Bir c\u00fcmle sadece. Bir ayd\u0131nl\u0131k s\u0131z\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131, bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k h\u00fczmesi b\u00fct\u00fcn karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sildi\u011fi gibi, bir c\u00fcmle de t\u00fcm karanl\u0131k d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri siliverir.<\/p>\n
Fak\u00fcltenin koridorlar\u0131 daha bir s\u0131k\u0131yordu o g\u00fcn. Hicran saatleri g\u00fcnlere, senelere ink\u0131l\u00e2b edecekti ya… \u0130lk zamanlar\u0131n \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131 \u00fczerinde. Nas\u0131l olur, neden, niye, ni\u00e7in sorular\u0131 labirent k\u0131vr\u0131mlar\u0131nda gezinirken, ruhu al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f ceset gibi dola\u015f\u0131yordu ortal\u0131kta. \u00d6nceden her yerden \u00f6\u011frencinin, hocan\u0131n \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerler sessizli\u011fe b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. \u00d6\u011frenciler amfide toplanacak haberi gelince isteksiz ad\u0131mlarla y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Kocaman fak\u00fcltede toplasan y\u00fcz ki\u015fi yoktu. Biraz sonra a\u011f\u0131r ad\u0131mlarla gelen hocan\u0131n isteksiz ders anlat\u0131m\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 tutamad\u0131. Kimsenin bakm\u0131yor olmas\u0131 \u015fanst\u0131 tabi. Eskiden salonu dolduran \u00f6\u011frenciler ve \u015fevkle ders anlatan hocalar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce… Tutamad\u0131 g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 i\u015fte. Menfur emellerin, menhus g\u00fcnleriydi bunlar. D\u00f6nen ta\u015flar art\u0131k insan \u00f6\u011f\u00fct\u00fcyordu. Kimsesizlik hissi gelip y\u00fcre\u011finin ba\u015f k\u00f6\u015fesine \u00f6yle bir oturdu ki… Derste ne anlat\u0131ld\u0131, ne dediler, kim neyi dedi hat\u0131rlam\u0131yordu bile.<\/p>\n
Bu h\u00fcz\u00fcnle bitti g\u00fcn. Bu h\u00fcz\u00fcnle gitti dershaneye. Fak\u00fcltedeyken g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc hocas\u0131n\u0131n art\u0131k olmay\u0131\u015f\u0131, bir ba\u015fka buruyordu i\u00e7ini. Mail att\u0131… Gelen cevap, i\u015fte o karanl\u0131klar\u0131n ci\u011ferini s\u00f6kecek, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0131karacak cinstendi. \u00d6\u011f\u00fct\u00fclen o insanlar\u0131n var olmalar\u0131n\u0131n bile ne kadar k\u0131ymetli oldu\u011funu hat\u0131rlatt\u0131 bu cevap. O kadar veciz ve nafizdi ki…<\/p>\n
\u201cBen yoksam siz vars\u0131n\u0131z.\u201d diyordu hocas\u0131. Ben yoksam siz vars\u0131n\u0131z.. \u201cSizin orada varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z o kadar k\u0131ymetli ki..\u201d diye devam ediyordu. Solgun g\u00f6nl\u00fc yeniden dirildi. Kurumu\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri yeniden canland\u0131. Bu bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn yar\u0131\u015f\u0131 de\u011fildi \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. A\u011flanacak ve \u015fartlara teslim olunacak zaman de\u011fildi. Var olunmal\u0131yd\u0131 sadece. Zaman, mek\u00e2n, \u015fartlar, hadiseler de\u011fildi konu\u015fulmas\u0131 gereken. Zaman\u0131n imbi\u011finden nas\u0131l s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcnece\u011fiydi.<\/p>\n
Ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc nas\u0131l \u00e7\u0131k\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 ki karanl\u0131ktan ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa?<\/p>\n
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Karanl\u0131k koridorlar\u0131n sonunu g\u00f6remezsiniz bazen. Her t\u00fcnelin sonundaki \u0131\u015f\u0131k bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc gelmez. \u0130nsan dertlenir, kederlenir, yaln\u0131zl\u0131k ve h\u00fczn\u00fcn binbir t\u00fcrl\u00fc halini konuk eder ruhunda. \u00c7aresizli\u011fin s\u00fck\u00fbtu iner \u00fczerine. “\u015eeb-i yeld\u00e2y\u0131 m\u00fcneccimle muvakkit ne bilir M\u00fcbtel\u00e2-y\u0131 gama sor kim geceler ka\u00e7 saat..\u201d dedi\u011fi gibi S\u00e2bit\u2019in… Gam saatleri uzad\u0131k\u00e7a uzar, dakikalar demlene demlene ge\u00e7er. Ve insan sessiz…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":17494,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[310,145,144,168],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17439","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-agustos-eylul-26","category-dusunce","category-edeb","category-havva-kucuk-konur","category-310","category-145","category-144","category-168","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"aioseo_head":"\n\t\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t