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Ahirzaman G\u00fcl\u2019\u00fcm<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tugay Mola<\/strong><\/p>\n

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H\u00fbb A\u011fabeyim\u2026<\/p>\n

Beyaz at\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde bir sabah vakti mezar\u0131ma do\u011fman\u0131 arzulad\u0131m. Bir kere gelmen benim bin kere gitmeme engel olacakt\u0131. Da\u011f yar\u0131lsayd\u0131, ba\u011f-\u0131 bust\u00e2n yansayd\u0131\u2026 Nas\u0131l olurdu halim? \u00c7aresizim ey g\u00f6n\u00fcl. \u00c7aresizim!<\/p>\n

Seni severken senin sevdiklerini de sevdim. Davan\u0131 sevdim. \u0130hv\u00e2n\u0131n\u0131 sevdim. \u0130nan o\u2019nu ben, seni sevmeden \u00f6nce sevdim. O\u2019nu, seni g\u00f6rmeden \u00f6nce g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. O\u2019nu, seni duymadan \u00f6nce duydum. Duyanlar ve o\u2019na uyanlar buldular c\u00e2n i\u00e7inde huzuru. O\u2019na vefas\u0131z olanlar kald\u0131lar benim gibi zan i\u00e7inde! Fever\u00e2n ederler. \u0130syan ederler. T\u0131pk\u0131 benim gibi. Yolda kalm\u0131\u015flar\u2026.<\/p>\n

O m\u00e2lum \u201cn\u00e2s\u0131ra\u201d h\u00e2ini gibi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ma \u015f\u00fckrediyorum… L\u00e2kin yolda kald\u0131m. Hatan\u0131n ve g\u00fcnah\u0131n her \u00e7e\u015fidine g\u00f6z yumand\u0131m. Ancak davaya ihanet edenlerden \u00e7ok uzakt\u0131m. Kendime cent defa ihanet ettim. \u201cGariplerim\u201d dediklerime asla! Ne ilkte ne de ahir vakitte! Sizlere topyek\u00fbn bakarken sizlere at\u0131lan \u011faliz iftiralara tahamm\u00fcl edemeyip el \u00e2leme kin ba\u011flayand\u0131m. Ve h\u00e2l\u00e2 ba\u011flar\u0131m\u2026 Ben oturup oturup yeniden a\u011flar\u0131m. Ate\u015fte yanarken sevinirim ben. Ocaklarda s\u0131zlarken g\u00fclerim ben, \u2018a\u011flarken mutlu oldu\u011funuz\u2019 gibi\u2026* Bu gece ba\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 istirham edip hasretimi bizim o \u2018d\u00fcnyalar g\u00fczeli\u2019ne yakmak isterim\u2026<\/p>\n

[*Edit\u00f6r notu: K\u0131ymetli yazar\u0131m\u0131z Tugay Mola\u2019n\u0131n \u2018a\u011fabeyim\u2019 diye hitap etti\u011fi ve \u2018a\u011flarken mutlu oldu\u011funuz gibi\u2019 dedi\u011fi ki\u015fi, Dr. Musa Hub hocam\u0131zd\u0131r, onun \u2018Yaln\u0131zl\u0131kta Bulu\u015fmak\u2019 ba\u015fl\u0131kl\u0131 makalesinin giri\u015fine ve biti\u015f c\u00fcmlesine at\u0131fta bulunmaktad\u0131r: \u201cBen a\u011flarken mutluyum. Titrerken \u0131s\u0131n\u0131yorum k\u0131\u015f ayaz\u0131nda. Kan yutman\u0131n cehennem\u00ee tad\u0131 zevk oldu sanki dama\u011f\u0131mda. Havas\u0131z ya\u015f\u0131yorum, g\u0131das\u0131z doyuyorum ve uykusuz geceliyorum adeta. (…) Seni art\u0131k tan\u0131yorum biliyorsun ey ben! \u0130tiraf et; kimsesiz bir zavall\u0131s\u0131n; ancak a\u011flarken g\u00fclebilirsin sen…\u201d 16 Ocak 1993, Demirta\u015f \/ Bursa. Bkz. Musa H\u00fbb, Bir Kalbin Al\u0131nyaz\u0131s\u0131, s.205-207, Merk\u00fcr Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, \u0130stanbul, 1999.]<\/p>\n

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Ey Ahirzaman G\u00fczelim\u2026<\/p>\n

Elek elek ac\u0131 belendi topraklar! Ey Sen, nerdesin? Felek felek yang\u0131n ya\u011fd\u0131 analar! Sen nerdesin ey? Tull\u00e2b yang\u0131na d\u00fc\u015ferken Sen nerdesin ey can? \u00c7\u0131k \u011fayri ortaya… Gel gayri kutlu vatan\u0131ma, (g\u00f6n\u00fcl yuvama)… Sen s\u00f6yle… M\u0131zrab\u0131n hali kalmad\u0131! Ey can\u2026 Sen (ruhaniyetinle) g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrken o kutlu beldede ne bayramlar ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k! Ne Fatihler tan\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131k! Seccadeleri kum olmu\u015f nice g\u00f6n\u00fclleri alk\u0131\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k! G\u00f6n\u00fclleri toprak olmu\u015f g\u00fczel g\u00fcller koklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k! Sanki bahar\u0131 tatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k! Nerdesin ey Sen? Seni bekliyor. O kilidi eline (yeniden) alman\u0131 istiyor! D\u00f6n ey c\u00e2n… (H\u00e2mili oldu\u011fun o diriltici ruh ile) geri gel ey ahir zaman cih\u00e2n! Geri gel…<\/p>\n

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G\u00fclh\u00e2neler senin biricik tebess\u00fcm\u00fcne g\u00fcllerini fed\u00e2 ederler! B\u00fclb\u00fcller senin az\u0131c\u0131k iltifat\u0131na canlar\u0131n\u0131 vakf ederler! Sen ey c\u00e2n\u2026 Ayr\u0131l\u0131k ate\u015fi daha ne zamana kadar yanacak? (Hayat d\u00f6nemiyle) \u2018vuslat t\u00fcrk\u00fcleri(miz)\u2019 daha ne zamana kadar a\u011flayacak? Yetimler ve niceleri daha ne zamana kadar dayans\u0131nlar? \u2018Ayr\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131yoruz!\u2019 diye \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k atan sersemlerdenim! Ayr\u0131 ya\u015fayan ben ve benim gibilerdir! Zira Sen ezelden beri kap\u0131n\u0131 herkese a\u00e7t\u0131n. D\u00f6vene elsiz, s\u00f6vene dilsiz davrand\u0131n. Senin \u015f\u00e2n\u0131ndand\u0131r o!<\/p>\n

\u00c2\u015f\u0131k-\u0131 b\u00eekar\u00e2r\u0131m. Lutufk\u00e2r kap\u0131n olmasayd\u0131 hi\u00e7 gelir miydim yan\u0131na? Merhamet sahibi oldu\u011funu bilmeseydim o selam\u0131 getirir miydim g\u00f6n\u00fcl diyar\u0131na? A\u015fk sahibi oldu\u011funu bilmeseydim H\u00fbb\u2019bundan dem vurur muydum? Beldeler gezdim, \u00fclkeler g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, g\u00f6n\u00fcller tan\u0131d\u0131m ama Senin gibisini hi\u00e7 bulamad\u0131m. Nas\u0131l bulacakt\u0131m o candan s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131? Nas\u0131l tadacakt\u0131m o kat\u0131ks\u0131z a\u015fk\u0131? Nas\u0131l bekleyecektim o \u2018bel\u00e2\u2019s\u0131z vefay\u0131? (bel\u00e2, yani evet!) Ama hi\u00e7birisini bulamayacakt\u0131m\u2026 Hi\u00e7birisini…<\/p>\n

Seyyid Fevzeddin yoldan ge\u00e7erken dervi\u015flerin kurban olsun sana. Ballar bal\u0131n\u0131 bulanlar ya\u011fma olacak olan kovan\u0131 neylesin? Kurban olsun\u2026 Canlar sana kurban olsun. G\u00fcl yanmazsa ben yanay\u0131m. G\u00f6n\u00fcl kanmazsa ben kanay\u0131m. \u015eehit \u015ferbeti nerdesin? Seni i\u00e7mek isterim. Nerdesin ey sevgili?<\/p>\n

Affet vefas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131. Affet hay\u00e2s\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131. \u015eark\u0131lar\u0131m d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc k\u0131\u015flarda. \u00c2\u015f\u0131klar\u0131m \u00f6ld\u00fc o bilinen \u201cOcak\u201dlarda. Mektuplar\u0131m s\u0131zd\u0131 \u0131p\u0131ss\u0131z kuytularda. Ac\u0131lar\u0131m \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rd\u0131 ac\u0131mas\u0131z bu\u00fbdlarda. Bilseydim senin oldu\u011funu, o k\u0131r\u0131las\u0131 kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7ard\u0131m. Bilseydim senin o engin mehabbetini y\u0131rtard\u0131m o y\u0131rt\u0131las\u0131 mektuplar\u0131. Bilseydim affetti\u011fini, b\u0131rak\u0131rd\u0131m o yok olas\u0131 d\u00fcnyay\u0131. Bilseydim\u2026 Bilseydim ferm\u00e2n\u0131n\u0131n geli\u015fini\u2026 Bilseydim\u2026<\/p>\n

Ben bilemedim, Sen bilensin. Ben tan\u0131yamad\u0131m, Sen tan\u0131yans\u0131n. Ben sevemedim, Sen sevensin. Ben tadamad\u0131m, Sen tadans\u0131n. Ben duyamad\u0131m, Sen duyans\u0131n…<\/p>\n

Ey c\u00e2n\u2026 Ey sevgili\u2026 Beyaz at\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131mlarla yar\u0131\u015f edeni neylerim ki ben? Ben Seni isterim. O cennet bah\u00e7ende reft\u00e2re dola\u015fmak isterim. Sen bilendin, Ben isteyendim. Sen verendin, Ben dilenendim. Sen vakfedendin. Ben s\u00f6ylenen, Sen ise s\u00f6yleyen. Ben aciz idim, Sen h\u00e2kim… Ben ve Sen\u2026 Bilseydim…<\/p>\n

Y\u00fcre\u011fime indi ayr\u0131l\u0131k ac\u0131n. Seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Seni bana b\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Belki de beni sana b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm. Bir merhametine vermeye haz\u0131rd\u0131m y\u00fcre\u011fimi\/ci\u011ferimi. Bir haberini almaya, raz\u0131yd\u0131m d\u00fcnyal\u0131k ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa. Can bedenden \u00e7\u0131kar da senin \u201cHay\u201d sil\u00fcetin sars\u0131lmadan par\u0131ldar g\u00f6k y\u00fcre\u011fimde. Affet beni ey y\u0131ld\u0131z\u2026 Affet beni ey g\u00fcne\u015f\u2026 Affet beni ey dolunay\u0131m\u2026 Affet beni ey \u00e2lem-i c\u00e2n\u2026 Bir bilseydim \u201chadi gelsin\u201d dedi\u011fini\u2026<\/p>\n

Ekme\u011fim g\u0131rtla\u011f\u0131mda kurudu. Sevincim y\u00fcre\u011fimde k\u00fcflendi. Eme\u011fim elemlerimde kilitlendi. Sevdiklerim o denizin dibine g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fc! Hazinemi kaybettim. Y\u0131llar oldu\u2026 O g\u00f6m\u00fclen hazineden daha iyisini bulabilirim zann\u0131yla t\u00fckendim. Ama bulamad\u0131m. Y\u00fcre\u011fimdeki \u201ca\u015fk\u201d o malum denizin alt\u0131na g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden beri azab ya\u015famakta. A\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn yoktur. \u00c7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k atmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 an yoktur. Bekleyip durdu, seherledi\u2026.<\/p>\n

Yollar\u0131 g\u00f6zledim. Denizleri gezdim. G\u00f6zlerimi g\u00f6klere \u00e7evirdim. K\u00e2h yerde arad\u0131m\u2026 K\u00e2h g\u00f6kte\u2026 K\u00e2h yaln\u0131zken\u2026 K\u00e2h kalabal\u0131kken\u2026 K\u00e2h inde iken\u2026 K\u00e2h cincide iken\u2026 K\u00e2h nurda iken ve k\u00e2h ate\u015fte iken\u2026 K\u00e2h havada iken\u2026 K\u00e2h denizde iken\u2026 K\u00e2h N\u00fbman\u2019da iken\u2026 K\u00e2h \u015eems\u2019te iken\u2026 K\u00e2h Ay\u2019da iken\u2026 Hep senin hazine g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc arad\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n

Ac\u0131l\u0131 yolculu\u011fumun bid\u00e2yetinden beri bir defa olsun g\u00f6nl\u00fcmle vef\u00e2s\u0131zl\u0131k etti\u011fimi hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131m. Nefsim vefas\u0131z olsa da g\u00f6nl\u00fcm vefas\u0131z olamazd\u0131. N\u2019olursun baht\u0131na d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm, Sen girdaba kap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc tan\u0131 ey c\u00e2n\u2026 Seni bir defa olsun \u00e7\u0131kart(a)mad\u0131m hazan yolcu\u011fumdan. Tatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m ac\u0131lar\u0131 ya\u015farken hep seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm vefas\u0131zl\u0131klar olmu\u015f olsa da hep seni g\u00f6zledim. Kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 kapatm\u0131\u015flar\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131\u015f olsam da kap\u0131n\u0131n hep a\u00e7\u0131k oldu\u011funa inand\u0131m. \u0130nanc\u0131m ve iman\u0131m aras\u0131nda s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m bana z\u00e2r\u0131 z\u00e2r\u0131 yazd\u0131rd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Ey sabah g\u00fcl\u00fcm\u2026<\/p>\n

Ben sana vurgunum. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fimi savururdum. Gelece\u011fimi avuturdum. Ben senin bir a\u015fk\u0131n i\u00e7in gecelerimi a\u011flat\u0131rd\u0131m. Biricik sil\u00fcetine b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u015fklar\u0131 aldat\u0131rd\u0131m. Sana\u2026 Sen\u2026 Sadece senin o engin dery\u00e2n\u2026 Sadece senin zengin ed\u00e2n\u2026<\/p>\n

C\u00e2n\u0131ma derm\u00e2n\u2026 Ey A\u015fk-\u0131 C\u00e2n\u2026<\/p>\n

A\u00e7\u0131l gayri k\u00f6lene. G\u00fcl gayri bendene. Sensiz zaman h\u00fbn! Sensiz devran a\u011flar ceyh\u00fbn! A\u011falar-babalar toplan\u0131p \u00f6n\u00fcnde diz \u00e7\u00f6kerlerken ben neden hala kar\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kamad\u0131m? G\u00fcnah\u0131m elest bezmi azab\u0131mdan da m\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck olacakt\u0131? Ben seni sevdim\u2026 \u0130nan ben hep seni sevdim. Bu sevgi u\u011fruna kitab\u0131 f\u0131rlatt\u0131m. Bu sevda yoluna libas\u0131m\u0131 att\u0131m. Bu a\u015fk dura\u011f\u0131nda son kalan ak\u00e7emi de kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z da\u011f\u0131tt\u0131m\u2026 Her gece g\u00f6n\u00fcl cem\u00e2line bakabilmek i\u00e7in \u015feytana yal katt\u0131m! Her hece seni ayda sezebilmek i\u00e7in nefsimi a\u011flatt\u0131m. \u2018L\u00e2 tuzi\u011f kalb\u00ee. Ba\u2019de iz hedeyten\u00ee\u2026\u2019<\/p>\n

G\u00f6n\u00fcld\u00fc Kerbel\u00e2 s\u00eenezenleri i\u015fgal ettiler ey c\u00e2n\u2026 Ey H\u00fcseyin c\u00e2n\u2026 Ey Hasan kurb\u00e2n\u2026 Kalk art\u0131k\u2026 Dirilmek isterim. Uyanmak isterim. Sadece senin yolunda olmak isterim\u2026 Uyan ey c\u00e2n\u2026 Uyand\u0131r beni\u2026 Sev ey c\u00e2n\u2026 Sevdir beni\u2026 G\u00f6r ey c\u00e2n\u2026 G\u00f6rd\u00fcr beni\u2026 Zira ben seni isterim seni\u2026<\/p>\n

Taptuk sab\u0131rl\u0131 Yunus de\u011filim ki. \u015eam\u2019\u0131 yeniden a\u015fan \u015eems de de\u011filim. A\u015fk\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcnden ya\u015fayan o dervi\u015f de de\u011filim! Elimde avucumda ve z\u00e2r\u0131 z\u00e2r g\u00f6nl\u00fcmde ifl\u00e2s\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131m. \u0130fl\u00e2s ettim ey c\u00e2n. Y\u0131llar oldu. Bakmaz m\u0131s\u0131n bir defa? Ac\u0131maz m\u0131s\u0131n bir daha? M\u00fcflisim! Sen Sultans\u0131n\u2026 Bense bir k\u00f6le\u2026 Lutfedip tenezz\u00fcl edi\u015fini ne de \u00e7ok isterdim\u2026<\/p>\n

Sen o kutlu t\u00e2\u00e7. Sen o muzaffer taht. Sen, o d\u00eeli her \u015feyden tatl\u0131 olan sen\u2026 Sen anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n hakikatlerle rahmet rahmet ya\u011farken huz\u00fbr-u yak\u00eeninde olanlar o bereketleri al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler g\u00fcne\u015fin do\u011fup batt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerlere. Sen ocaklarda yang\u0131n i\u00e7re \u201cEy Dost, Ey Dost\u2026 Ey Dost\u201d diye kurbanlar\u0131n\u0131 o malum mabedlerde a\u011flat\u0131rken, senin o damla damla l\u00e2l-\u00fc g\u00fcher ilh\u00e2m\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcecekti yi\u011fit o\u011flu yi\u011fitlerin\u2026 Uzak diyarlara\u2026 En ucra k\u00f6\u015felere\u2026 En bilinmedik yerlere gariplere garip olmak i\u00e7in hicret eden y\u00e2r\u00e2nlar\u0131n vard\u0131 ey c\u00e2n\u2026<\/p>\n

Ey c\u00e2n\u2026 Kar\u015f\u0131nda k\u00fcstah\u00e7a konu\u015fmu\u015flu\u011fumu affet\u2026 Uzaklara… O g\u00f6kler \u00fcst\u00fc d\u00e2v\u00e2y\u0131 anlatmak i\u00e7in erenlerin vard\u0131\u2026 Yasin\u2019lerin vard\u0131\u2026 Fatiha\u2019lar\u0131n vard\u0131\u2026 \u00d6ks\u00fczlerin, yetimlerin vard\u0131\u2026 Can\u0131 duda\u011f\u0131na gelmi\u015f \u00e2\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n vard\u0131\u2026 Her yer g\u00fcll\u00fck ve g\u00fclistanl\u0131kt\u0131\u2026 Nemrut ate\u015finde irem bah\u00e7elerinde dola\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f gibi gezen reft\u00e2re hak dostlar\u0131n vard\u0131\u2026 Sen aralar\u0131ndayd\u0131n\u2026 Seni g\u00f6rmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlard\u0131\u2026 Seni dinlemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlard\u0131\u2026 Seni anlamaya\u2026 Seni sevmeye ahdedenlerin vard\u0131\u2026 Sen o Nemrut ate\u015finde berden ve sel\u00e2men ya\u011fard\u0131n\u2026 Herkes seni tadard\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Vard\u0131\u2026 \u015eimdi onlar sensiz varl\u0131\u011fa isyan eder oldular. Hasret \u00f6yle bir ac\u0131 ki a\u015fk\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 dahi unutturdu bizlere. Hele bana! \u201cGeri gel babac\u0131\u011f\u0131m!\u201d diye a\u011flayan k\u00f6rpelerin o m\u00e2sum y\u00fczlerine bakmaya bile ces\u00e2ret edemem. Vurgunum-ka\u00e7k\u0131n\u0131m-darg\u0131n\u0131m ama her \u015feye ra\u011fmen k\u00f6rpelerin gibi hasretini \u00e7ektim. (\u201cFeseye\u00fbd\u00fc\u201d s\u0131rr\u0131yla gurbetlerden geri d\u00f6n ey ahirzaman\u0131n gar\u00eebi! Garipler gar\u00eebi!) Geri gel c\u00e2n, (can\u0131ma can katan, iman katan kahraman.) Geri d\u00f6n\u2026 Geri\u2026 Zira bizler yollarda kald\u0131k sensiz. \u201cMakam ve mans\u0131b\u201d derken h\u0131rs\u0131 ellerimize alanlard\u0131k\u2026<\/p>\n

G\u00f6n\u00fcl diyar\u0131na ac\u0131 \u00e7ektirenler k\u00fcfredenler gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f olsa da ben iman ettim ki cihan\u0131na dokunanlar Hak\u2019ta olduklar\u0131n\u0131 iddia edenlerdir. Sen bilensin, ben bilemeyen… Bilgisiz cahilden sual olunmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildi\u011fim i\u00e7in bu \u015fekilde ar\u0131za ettim.<\/p>\n

Ey c\u00e2n, ben batt\u0131m bataca\u011f\u0131m kadar. Kulaklar\u0131m delhizin bir ucunda. \u00c7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar duyar gibiyim\u2026 \u201cBabac\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u201d diye a\u011flayan bebekleri duyar gibiyim. \u201cC\u00e2n\u0131m\u0131z, c\u00e2n\u00e2n\u0131m\u0131z\u201d* diye a\u011f\u0131tlar salanlar\u0131n vard\u0131. (* M. H\u00fbb\u2019in bir \u015fiiren atfen…) Fars\u2019ta \u015eirazl\u0131\u2019n\u0131n G\u00fclist\u00e2n\u2019\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fk\u0131nla aldatan s\u00eenezen(ci)lerin vard\u0131. \u015eimal\u2019de Arap\u2019lar\u0131n… O kutlu beldelerde \u201cGaripler\u201din vard\u0131. Bayrak yere d\u00fc\u015fmesin diye kolunu\u2013baca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, c\u00e2n\u0131n\u0131-c\u00e2n\u00e2n\u0131n\u0131 ve her \u015feylerini fed\u00e2 edenlerin vard\u0131. O hazin anlarda fetih diyar\u0131na \u00f6l\u00fcp \u00f6l\u00fcp dirilenlerin vard\u0131. Firar edip \u00e7ent defa geri sana d\u00f6nenlerin vard\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Ben d\u00f6nemedim\u2026 Bir defac\u0131k olsun cihan\u0131na yakla\u015famad\u0131m. Bir lahza olsun huzurunda kemer beste olamad\u0131m. Ne \u00e2biddim ne de z\u00e2hiddim. Ben ezel yolundan ge\u00e7erken g\u00f6z\u00fc bir aral\u0131k sana tak\u0131land\u0131m\u2026 G\u00fcnahlar\u0131m ve kederlerim Nemrut da\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015ft\u0131 ey c\u00e2n. Korkuyorum ki o s\u0131n\u0131ra yakla\u015facak.<\/p>\n

Hep \u201cSeni ve D\u00e2v\u00e2n\u0131 sevdim.\u201d Can devletini sevdim. Ben o devletinden d\u00fcnyaya da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u201cgaripler\u201dini sevdim. Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc k\u0131bleden \u00e7evirdi\u011fim anlarda bile hep Seni ve Davan\u0131 sevdim. \u0130man\u0131m\u0131n karabasanla h\u0131rg\u00fcr oldu\u011fu anlarda bile hep Seni sevdim (ey nurlu eserleriyle insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n iman\u0131na vesile olan!). Ay\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131mda da Seni sevdim. Bay\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131mda da hep Seni sevdim. Uykumda seni sevdim. Ufkumda seni sevdim. Nutkumda seni sevdim. Utkumda seni sevdim. G\u00fcne\u015fimde\u2026 ay\u0131mda\u2026 can\u0131mda\u2026 cihan\u0131mda\u2026 bahar\u0131mda\u2026 nehar\u0131mda\u2026 sonbahar\u0131mda\u2026 k\u0131\u015f\u0131mda\u2026 azab\u0131mda\u2026 da\u011f gibi ac\u0131lar\u0131mda hep seni sevdim ey c\u00e2n\u2026<\/p>\n

Seni arad\u0131m\u2026 Hem nas\u0131l arad\u0131m! O kutlu devletinin mescitlerinde bir araya gelip huzurunda g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6kenlerini arad\u0131m. Bedenim beni olmad\u0131k yerlerde g\u00f6stermi\u015f olsa da g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc hep o yitirdi\u011fim memleketimin t\u00e2c\u0131n\u0131 aramas\u0131 i\u00e7in benden uzak sald\u0131m. G\u00f6nl\u00fcm arad\u0131k\u00e7a bulamad\u0131. G\u00f6zlerim g\u00f6zledik\u00e7e g\u00f6remedi. Zerreler k\u00fcrrele\u015fti g\u00f6zlerimde. G\u00f6zlerimden b\u00fcy\u00fck g\u00f6z\u00fckenleri g\u00f6remez oldum. Bense g\u00f6zlerimin g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerine bile tenezz\u00fcl etmez oldum. Zira ben sadece Seni sevdim\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201cSeni seviyoruz\u201d diye g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc \u00e7ehrene g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler sa\u00e7anlar gibi kar\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131k(a)mad\u0131m. Ne libas\u0131m vard\u0131, ne de takkem kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Her \u015feyi f\u0131rlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m! Hangi y\u00fczle kar\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p da Seni sevdi\u011fimi s\u00f6yleyebilirdim ki? \u201cYazan elvesim Sen ol da yazay\u0131m\u201d dedim. O y\u00fczden ben ka\u011f\u0131tlara ak\u0131tt\u0131m i\u00e7imde volkan gibi kaynayan a\u015fk\u0131m\u0131n a\u011f\u0131d\u0131n\u0131. Senin a\u015fk\u0131n olmasayd\u0131 \u201cArz-\u0131 R\u00fbm (ve\u2019l-Acem)\u201d h\u00e2l\u00e2 a\u011flayacakt\u0131. (\u201c\u00dcmitvar olunuz; \u015fu istikbal ink\u0131lab\u00e2t\u0131 i\u00e7inde en y\u00fcksek ve g\u00fcr sad\u00e2, \u0130sl\u00e2m’\u0131n sad\u00e2s\u0131 olacakt\u0131r!\u201d gibi s\u00f6zlerinle) senin o fetih m\u00fcjden olmasayd\u0131 alem l\u00e2yem\u00fbt s\u0131zlanacakt\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Seni seven er o\u011flu er erenlerin vard\u0131. Senin i\u00e7in \u015fak\u0131yan b\u00fclb\u00fcllerin vard\u0131. \u201cBuras\u0131 da yetmez\u201d deyip nice diyar diyar gezenlerin vard\u0131. L\u00e2kin Seni yer yer ac\u0131lara b\u00fcr\u00fcyen dost g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcml\u00fc yak\u0131nlar\u0131n (!) da vard\u0131. Yak\u0131n\u0131nda bulunanlar\u0131n ac\u0131lar\u0131 seni z\u00e2r\u0131 z\u00e2r\u0131 s\u0131zlatt\u0131ysa nolursun gel bir defa buraya da seni bizler (uza\u011f\u0131nda olanlar) r\u00e2z\u0131 etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fal\u0131m. Yak\u0131n\u0131nda olan, a\u015fk\u0131 ve nefreti ayn\u0131 anda vermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Bizler \u00e7ok uza\u011f\u0131nday\u0131z. Bizler sana sadece a\u015fk\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 vermeye talibiz. Vars\u0131n makam sevdas\u0131nda olanlar \u015fimdi sevinsin. Beklemeye raz\u0131y\u0131z…<\/p>\n

\u201cSeninle candan tebess\u00fcmle\u015fenler bizleriz. Seni en \u00e7ok zikredenler bizleriz. Seni en \u00e7ok anan bizleriz. Hasretine en \u00e7ok a\u011flayan bizleriz. Bizleriz \u00f6zleyen o \u2018huzur-u yak\u00een\u2019ini.* [*Edit\u00f6r notu: Huz\u00fbr-u yak\u00een tabiri, Dr. Musa Hub Hocam\u0131z\u0131n Ocak 1993\u2019te Bursa\u2019da yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 Ruhum Efendim isimli \u015fiirinde \u201cRuh\u00e2n\u00ee de\u011filim, nas\u0131l varam huz\u00fbr-u yak\u00eene? \/ Kader ge\u00e7it verir mi acep ol Ravza-i P\u00e2kine?\u201c beytiyle dilimize kazand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve talebesi\/ahiret karde\u015fi Tugay Mola\u2019n\u0131n ordan al\u0131p \u00e2riyeten kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir tabirdir.] Kendilerini yak\u0131n\u0131nda zannetmi\u015f olanlara da duac\u0131 olanlar bizleriz\u201d diye \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k atan\u0131n yol yordam bilmez s\u00f6zleri birer birer d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrken k\u0131r\u0131p da\u011f\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131m mekanlar\u0131n borcunu boynumda al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrmeye r\u00e2z\u0131y\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n

Ey can m\u00fcjde\u2026<\/p>\n

Ne diyebilirim ki bende Seni sevdim\u2026<\/p>\n

Sevdim! Hem de nas\u0131l!<\/p>\n

Ey yolcu\u2026.<\/p>\n

\u201cVefas\u0131zl\u0131k yapmad\u0131m\u201d diye ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 velveleye veren sahtek\u00e2r\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 ellerimde bo\u011fulurken sana s\u00f6yleyeceklerimi son s\u00f6zlerimmi\u015f gibi dinle! A\u015fk ve vef\u00e2n\u0131n birbirlerine bakt\u0131klar\u0131 saatteyiz.<\/p>\n

Beni dinle! Hud\u00e2\u2019ya (c.c) vef\u00e2 \u00f6yle bir A\u015fk\u2019t\u0131r ki O da Hz. Muhammed\u2019dir (s.a.v)! \u015e\u00e2n\u0131 Y\u00fcce Keremimiz Hz. Muhammed (s.a.v)! O Sevgili bizleri affetsin. O\u2019nun \u015e\u00e2n\u0131ndan y\u00fckseklere g\u00f6z dikmi\u015f nefislerimize yaz\u0131klar olsun!<\/p>\n

Bu ne bi\u00e7im vefa? Bu ne bi\u00e7im ar\u0131za? Ey R\u0131za! Sana hakk\u0131yla vefal\u0131 olamad\u0131k. Sana hakk\u0131yla edepli olamad\u0131k. Sana hakk\u0131yla tapamad\u0131k. Sana hakk\u0131yla yalvaramad\u0131k. A\u015fk\u2019\u0131na hakk\u0131yla a\u011flayamad\u0131k. Hep yaland\u0131\u2026 Hep doland\u0131\u2026 Hep \u00e7aland\u0131\u2026 Hep \u00e7\u0131rpand\u0131\u2026 K\u00e2h \u00f6yle idi\u2026 K\u00e2h b\u00f6yle idi\u2026 Vefa…<\/p>\n

Ey yolcu\u2026<\/p>\n

Sabah oldu\u2026 s\u00f6zlerimi \u00e7\u0131kart kulaklar\u0131ndan\u2026 Sabah Ezan\u0131n\u0131 dinle!<\/p>\n

Allah\u2019u Ekber!<\/p>\n

E\u015fhedu en l\u00e2 il\u00e2he illallah!<\/p>\n

E\u015fhedu enne Muhammeden Rasulullah! \u2026\u2026<\/p>\n

Hud\u00e2 (c.c) y\u00e2r ve yard\u0131mc\u0131m\u0131z ola!<\/p>\n

16\/07\/2007<\/p>\n

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Ahirzaman G\u00fcl\u2019\u00fcm Tugay Mola   H\u00fbb A\u011fabeyim\u2026 Beyaz at\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde bir sabah vakti mezar\u0131ma do\u011fman\u0131 arzulad\u0131m. Bir kere gelmen benim bin kere gitmeme engel olacakt\u0131. Da\u011f yar\u0131lsayd\u0131, ba\u011f-\u0131 bust\u00e2n yansayd\u0131\u2026 Nas\u0131l olurdu halim? \u00c7aresizim ey g\u00f6n\u00fcl. \u00c7aresizim! Seni severken senin sevdiklerini de sevdim. Davan\u0131 sevdim. \u0130hv\u00e2n\u0131n\u0131 sevdim. \u0130nan o\u2019nu ben, seni sevmeden \u00f6nce sevdim. O\u2019nu,…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":17413,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[145,306,153],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17386","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dusunce","category-haziran-temmuz-26","category-tugaymola","category-145","category-306","category-153","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"aioseo_head":"\n\t\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t