{"id":17374,"date":"2026-07-09T19:04:32","date_gmt":"2026-07-09T16:04:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/?p=17374"},"modified":"2026-07-09T19:04:32","modified_gmt":"2026-07-09T16:04:32","slug":"mechulum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/2026\/07\/09\/mechulum\/","title":{"rendered":"Me\u00e7hul\u00fcm"},"content":{"rendered":"

Me\u00e7hul\u00fcm<\/strong><\/p>\n

Havva K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Konur<\/strong><\/p>\n

Dalgalar\u0131n\u0131n koyu karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 geliyor kulaklar\u0131ma.<\/p>\n

H\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n, derin ve her daim k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131… Yeknesakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kabul etmeden hep hareket ve k\u0131y\u0131lara ba\u015fkald\u0131r\u0131… Rengin flu, ruhun engin… Hep bir sanc\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131, varolu\u015fun sicim sicim g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131… \u0130\u00e7imi buldu\u011fum sen miydin, yoksa sen mi d\u00f6kt\u00fcn i\u00e7ini i\u00e7ime, anlayamad\u0131m. Belki de hi\u00e7bir zaman anlayamayaca\u011f\u0131m. Hep me\u00e7hul\u00fcm kalacaks\u0131n. Y\u00e2d\u0131mda, hat\u0131ralar\u0131mda me\u00e7hul\u00fcm olarak gezeceksin.<\/p>\n

Dalgalar\u0131n derinle\u015fecek yer yer. Bazen kendimi buldu\u011fum, bazen seni yitirdi\u011fim koyu gizeminde, hep seni arayaca\u011f\u0131m. Rengini benzetemeyece\u011fim hi\u00e7bir renge. Hi\u00e7bir kal\u0131ba girmeyecek, hi\u00e7bir renkten olmayacaks\u0131n belki \u00f6mr\u00fcnce. Bir gemi kalkacak her g\u00fcn liman\u0131ndan; g\u00fcvertesinde umut, y\u00fck\u00fcnde \u00e7ile olan. Kimseye eyvallah etmeyen, kimseden de eyvallah\u0131 olmayan bir gemi… Nereye gitti\u011fi belli olmayacak; nereye, kimlere ula\u015ft\u0131raca\u011f\u0131 da… Ama hi\u00e7 b\u0131kmayacaks\u0131n bu gemiyi her g\u00fcn sonsuza u\u011furlamaktan. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen ufku a\u00e7\u0131k, i\u00e7i dertli, g\u00f6nl\u00fc h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc na\u011fmesisin Anadolu\u2019nun. Sen Karadeniz\u2019sin.<\/p>\n

H\u0131r\u00e7\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, \u00f6fken, y\u00fcre\u011finde s\u00fck\u00fbnete izin vermiyor gibi. Yumu\u015fac\u0131k dalgalar\u0131n bile \u0131slat\u0131r \u00e7o\u011fu kez. Belli olmaz ne zaman ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n. Yava\u015f yava\u015f gelir ve bir anda \u00e7arpars\u0131n k\u0131y\u0131lara, s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam edersin. Herkes y\u00fczemez sular\u0131nda bu y\u00fczden. Her g\u00f6nl\u00fc almazs\u0131n i\u00e7ine kolay kolay; her g\u00f6n\u00fcl anlamaz seni. Heybesinde seninle ayn\u0131 y\u00fck olanlar\u0131, bir de seni \u00e7\u00f6zm\u00fc\u015fleri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rs\u0131n. \u0130lmini \u00e7\u00f6zmek nasip olmad\u0131 bana. Ancak kumlar\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm, deniz kabuklar\u0131n\u0131 toplad\u0131m sahilinden, bir de derinli\u011fini izledim hep. Sana bakt\u0131k\u00e7a i\u00e7im geni\u015fledi, i\u00e7im geni\u015fledik\u00e7e sana bakt\u0131m. Derinli\u011fin, sessizli\u011fin i\u00e7imde hep bir sonsuzluk dokudu. Sen, y\u00fcre\u011fi sende olanlarla hemh\u00e2l olurken, ben hep kar\u015f\u0131dan izledim seni. Dalgalar\u0131n\u0131n ruhuma sindirdi\u011fi derin izleri hi\u00e7 unutmamay\u0131 umarak…<\/p>\n

\u00d6zellikle f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 zamanlar\u0131nda tercih ederdim yan\u0131na gitmeyi. Sahilde bir bankta oturup \u00f6fkeli dalgalar\u0131n\u0131n kayalara \u00e7arp\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ve etrafa yay\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 izlemek de\u011fi\u015fik bir haz verirdi bana. Sanki sen de\u011fil de ben yay\u0131yordum dertlerimi etrafa; ben da\u011f\u0131l\u0131yordum k\u00f6p\u00fck k\u00f6p\u00fck. Senin h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n benim i\u00e7imdekilerin \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc gibiydi. Sen da\u011f\u0131l\u0131yordun, \u00f6fkeleniyordun; ben toplan\u0131yordum. Mutmain bir ruh olup d\u00f6n\u00fcyordum evime.<\/p>\n

\u015eimdi senden kilometrelerce uzaktay\u0131m. Bazen sesin gelir kulaklar\u0131ma, bazen de hi\u00e7 sebepsiz akl\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fersin. Sen, k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131n ve dostlar… Gencecik bir k\u0131za kol kanat geren, onu yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmamak i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan aziz dostlar… Ne isimlerini ne de ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 unuttum. Hepsi birer y\u00e2d-\u0131 cemil olarak zihnime nak\u0131\u015fl\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Bir yerlerden so\u011fuk bir r\u00fczg\u00e2r esti\u011finde, gri bulutlar\u0131 pencereme her konuk etti\u011fimde tellerin titre\u015fir y\u00fcre\u011fimde. Sevdiklerine hasret ve \u00f6zlem duyan bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131k \u00e7alar kap\u0131m\u0131. Ve asl\u0131nda h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kayna\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyar\u0131m, duyurmak istemedi\u011fin kelimelerinden… Sessizli\u011fin dilini, anlat\u0131lamayanlar\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyanlar, yoklukta varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n yaln\u0131z d\u00fc\u015fleri… Sesini g\u00f6n\u00fcl duvar\u0131ndan dinleyenler, bu a\u011f\u0131r hamulenin niha\u00ee hamillerini…<\/p>\n

Ne kadar zor olsa da bir \u015fahit b\u0131rak ard\u0131nda. Kumunun, ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n, dalgalar\u0131n\u0131n hik\u00e2yesini anlats\u0131n senden sonrakilere. Dillendiremediklerini s\u00f6ylesin, a\u011flayamad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 aktars\u0131n. Ve bir ku\u015f b\u0131rak y\u00fcreklere; vatan\u0131na hasretinin t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc okusun. Bir damla ya\u015f\u0131n s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ramad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rs\u0131n zihinlere. Bir mum alevi olup yaks\u0131n kendini, i\u00e7in i\u00e7in erisin. Eriyerek getirsin ayd\u0131nl\u0131k sabahlar\u0131. Bahar\u0131n karlar\u0131 eriten g\u00fcne\u015fi \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p her yeri \u0131s\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, senin ad\u0131n an\u0131ls\u0131n bir yerlerde. Belki malum, belki me\u00e7hul bir tazelik olsun i\u015fte, b\u00fct\u00fcn kurakl\u0131klara inat…<\/p>\n

Bir naif r\u00fczg\u00e2r ol sonra. Y\u00fcre\u011findeki sevdan\u0131 yudumlayanlar, \u0131zd\u0131rab\u0131n binbir t\u00fcrl\u00fcs\u00fcyle sermestken, bir in\u015firah d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr g\u00f6n\u00fcllerine. Mahzun olmas\u0131nlar, \u00fcmitsizli\u011fe kap\u0131lmas\u0131nlar. S\u00fcrekli hareket h\u00e2linde olu\u015fun meyveleri olsun ellerinde. “Me\u00e7hul bir zaman\u0131n me\u00e7hul yolcusu” deyip sussunlar.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6n\u00fcllerinin ufkuna y\u00fcr\u00fcyene dek…<\/p>\n

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Me\u00e7hul\u00fcm Havva K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Konur Dalgalar\u0131n\u0131n koyu karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 geliyor kulaklar\u0131ma. H\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n, derin ve her daim k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131… Yeknesakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kabul etmeden hep hareket ve k\u0131y\u0131lara ba\u015fkald\u0131r\u0131… Rengin flu, ruhun engin… Hep bir sanc\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131, varolu\u015fun sicim sicim g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131… \u0130\u00e7imi buldu\u011fum sen miydin, yoksa sen mi d\u00f6kt\u00fcn i\u00e7ini i\u00e7ime, anlayamad\u0131m. Belki de hi\u00e7bir zaman anlayamayaca\u011f\u0131m. Hep me\u00e7hul\u00fcm kalacaks\u0131n. Y\u00e2d\u0131mda,…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":17406,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[145,144,168,306],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17374","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dusunce","category-edeb","category-havva-kucuk-konur","category-haziran-temmuz-26","category-145","category-144","category-168","category-306","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"aioseo_head":"\n\t\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t