{"id":1722,"date":"2022-11-21T21:50:56","date_gmt":"2022-11-21T18:50:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/?p=1722"},"modified":"2023-02-24T03:05:44","modified_gmt":"2023-02-24T00:05:44","slug":"kalbim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/2022\/11\/21\/kalbim\/","title":{"rendered":"Kalbim"},"content":{"rendered":"\r\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\"><strong>Kalbim<\/strong><\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">Nezafet Cang\u00fcl<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>Ben seni hi\u00e7 bilmezmi\u015fim.. hep o k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya boyanan ka\u011f\u0131t \u00fcst\u00fcndeki anlams\u0131z \u015fekil san\u0131rd\u0131m seni.. halbuki sen neleri s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n i\u00e7ine. En \u00e7ok bayram sabahlar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda hissettim seni.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Annemin babam\u0131n ellerinden \u00f6perken ve o ellerin sonra yanaklar\u0131m\u0131 sarmas\u0131ndan.. sonra top pe\u015finde ko\u015fan ayaklar\u0131n sana verdi\u011fi zorla arada bir g\u00fcmlettim seni.. ve anlams\u0131z mahalle kavgalar\u0131n\u0131n seni daraltmas\u0131ndan an\u0131msad\u0131m yine seni..<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Ad\u0131m ad\u0131m yakla\u015f\u0131yordum sana ama hala avucumda de\u011fildin\u2026<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Biten lise y\u0131llar\u0131 ve kazan\u0131lan \u00fcniversite s\u0131navlar\u0131.. art\u0131k biraz daha dingin ama derin bir sevinci temsil etti seninle..<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Ve art\u0131k bir arkada\u015f bulmu\u015ftum sana senle beraber \u00e7arps\u0131n diye.. bamba\u015fka ve yepyeni bir d\u00fcnya a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131m sana b\u00f6ylelikle..<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>\u0130lerleyip ge\u00e7ti y\u0131llar, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck hazz\u0131, Allah&#8217;\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck l\u00fctfu evlatlar basacakt\u0131m art\u0131k senin ba\u011fr\u0131na..<br \/>Seni b\u00f6ylelikle daha farkl\u0131 ve daha buudlu bir hale getirmi\u015ftim..<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Amma\u2026<br \/>Bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc tam bilemiyordum seni, anlams\u0131z bir bo\u015fluk vard\u0131 sol yan\u0131mda..<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>\u0130nan\u00e7s\u0131z de\u011fildim y\u0131llarca ibadet etmi\u015ftim.. ama seni tam manas\u0131yla tatmin edememi\u015ftim.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Ve seni seccadeyle bulu\u015fturdum, secdeye kavu\u015fturdum, dua ile yo\u011furdum; g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131nda kavurdum..<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Ve art\u0131k \u015fimdi seni buldum.. sen benim ben de senin oldum.<br \/>Me\u011fer sen ne yang\u0131n yeriymi\u015fsin. Olanca g\u00f6z damlas\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcremedi alevini.. Gelmi\u015fime a\u011flad\u0131m ge\u00e7mi\u015fime a\u011flad\u0131m. Hay\u0131rs\u0131z bir evlat olarak anama babama a\u011flad\u0131m.. vaktini bo\u015fa satt\u0131\u011f\u0131m evlad\u0131ma a\u011flad\u0131m.. sevdi\u011fime, sevmedi\u011fime, bilip bilmeyip istedi\u011fime, nank\u00f6rl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme ve k\u00f6rl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme, kulluktaki k\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcml\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme. Masiva \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme ve Nefis h\u00fck\u00fcmranl\u0131\u011f\u0131na a\u011flad\u0131m.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Biraz olsa da h\u00fczne bo\u011fdum seni..<br \/>Sonra geldi akl\u0131ma o mahzun nebi..<br \/>Daha be\u015fi\u011findeyken \u00fcmmeti \u00fcmmeti diyen sesi..<br \/>Ve veda hutbesinde a\u011flayan o tevazu simgesi..<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Ah kalbim ke\u015fke hep b\u00f6yle kalsam seninle. Alt\u0131n kal\u0131plar\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fmem yerine.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Ama bilirim b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcnce gaflet g\u00f6mle\u011fine.. Sen darda ben zorda daha \u00e7ok debelenirim. Ah kalbim dert benim, dert \u00e7ekmek senin\u2026<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><br \/>Kalpler yaln\u0131z Allah\u2019\u0131 anmakla mutmain olur.<\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Kalbim Nezafet Cang\u00fcl Ben seni hi\u00e7 bilmezmi\u015fim.. hep o k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya boyanan ka\u011f\u0131t \u00fcst\u00fcndeki anlams\u0131z \u015fekil san\u0131rd\u0131m seni.. halbuki sen neleri s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n i\u00e7ine. En \u00e7ok bayram sabahlar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda hissettim seni. Annemin babam\u0131n ellerinden \u00f6perken ve o ellerin sonra yanaklar\u0131m\u0131 sarmas\u0131ndan.. sonra top pe\u015finde ko\u015fan ayaklar\u0131n sana verdi\u011fi zorla arada bir g\u00fcmlettim seni.. ve anlams\u0131z mahalle kavgalar\u0131n\u0131n&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":15355,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[144,120,165],"tags":[177,173],"class_list":["post-1722","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-edeb","category-kasim22","category-nezafetcangul","tag-edebiyat","tag-kasim2022","category-144","category-120","category-165","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/12\/pexels-photo-2767814.jpeg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1722"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1722"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1722\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15391,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1722\/revisions\/15391"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/15355"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1722"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1722"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1722"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}