Bir varm\u0131\u015f bir yokmu\u015f, hep varm\u0131\u015f hi\u00e7 yokmu\u015f… Var ile yok aras\u0131n\u0131n yok oldu\u011fu bir s\u00fck\u00fbnetin ayak sesleridir, kap\u0131m\u0131zda gezinip duran. “Ya Hayy, bana kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ard\u0131na kadar a\u00e7!” diye dua ederken, kendi kap\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ard\u0131ndaki bo\u015flu\u011fu g\u00f6rmenin h\u00fczn\u00fcyle hemh\u00e2l olmu\u015fuz. Bir \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck dualardan, bir g\u00f6r\u00fcml\u00fck r\u00fcyalara d\u00fc\u015fmenin sanc\u0131s\u0131 var i\u00e7imizde.<\/p>\n
Geceler biriktirdik s\u00fcsl\u00fc sand\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zda ve hi\u00e7 s\u00f6ylenmemi\u015f heceler… K\u00e2h kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131 yarenimiz oldu k\u00e2h amalar, ke\u015fkeler, niceler… Ayaklar\u0131m\u0131za tak\u0131lan buka\u011f\u0131lar\u0131, g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm\u00fcze tak\u0131lan ac\u0131lar\u0131 \u015feref ni\u015fan\u0131 gibi ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131k senelerce. Emir b\u00fcy\u00fck yerdendi neticede.<\/p>\n
H\u00fczn\u00fcn ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 kademesiydi bu? Ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 ac\u0131dan sonra insan kendini kaybederdi? Ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 onu bo\u011far, ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 kuyuda benli\u011fini yitirirdi? Ka\u00e7 kaybedi\u015fin galibidir insan, ka\u00e7 sava\u015f\u0131n esiri? Ka\u00e7 \u015fah\u0131n mat olu\u015fu, ka\u00e7 piyonun harcan\u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131r insan? Bir beden, bir y\u00fcrek, bir nefesten ibarettik; da\u011f de\u011fildi ki insan, y\u00fck\u00fcnden \u00e7atlamas\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Olanda bir hay\u0131r, olmayanda bin hay\u0131r arad\u0131 insan ke\u015fkeleri yutkunurken. “Bu da ge\u00e7er ya H\u00fb” deyip \u00e7ekildi varlar\u0131n yok oldu\u011fu Hira\u2019s\u0131na. Kendinden kendini do\u011furdu \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011fa. Do\u011fum sanc\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131; do\u011fum, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131yametin emsaliydi adeta.<\/p>\n
Kimine h\u00fcz\u00fcn; ekmek, su gibi ihtiya\u00e7t\u0131; kimine topyek\u00fbn bir sava\u015ft\u0131. Kimi lezzetini ald\u0131, kiminin kursa\u011f\u0131nda kald\u0131. H\u00fcz\u00fcn, u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131 her kap\u0131da bir “Eyvallah” b\u0131rakt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Derdin bu y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc pi\u015firdik, biraz da \u00f6teki y\u00fcz\u00fc pi\u015fsin diye harlad\u0131 ate\u015fi felek. Dert yand\u0131, dert sahibi yand\u0131; derdi veren kald\u0131rd\u0131 perdeleri: \u201cBiz senin g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131p geni\u015fletmedik mi?\u201d (\u0130n\u015firah, 1)<\/p>\n
Onca y\u00fck\u00fcn alt\u0131ndan aslan gibi kalkan ama e\u015finin tabutunu ta\u015f\u0131yamayan Hz. Ali geldi ak\u0131llara. Baz\u0131 y\u00fckler ta\u015f\u0131nmazd\u0131, Allah’\u0131n emri olmasa.<\/p>\n
“\u00d6len hayvan imi\u015f, \u00e2\u015f\u0131klar \u00f6lmez,” diyen \u00c2\u015f\u0131k Yunus\u2019un s\u00f6zlerini bast\u0131k k\u00fcl olan ba\u011fr\u0131m\u0131za. Her ac\u0131da \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn yan\u0131k sesi kulaklar\u0131m\u0131zda \u00e7\u0131nlad\u0131k\u00e7a “\u00d6len hayvan imi\u015f,” deyip s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131k Eyvallah\u2019a.<\/p>\n
Kul Senin, g\u00fcl Senin, k\u00fcl Senin ya Rabbi; bizi Sensiz b\u0131rakma…<\/p>\n
Hatice Derin Silahl\u0131<\/p>\n
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Bir varm\u0131\u015f bir yokmu\u015f, hep varm\u0131\u015f hi\u00e7 yokmu\u015f… Var ile yok aras\u0131n\u0131n yok oldu\u011fu bir s\u00fck\u00fbnetin ayak sesleridir, kap\u0131m\u0131zda gezinip duran. “Ya Hayy, bana kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ard\u0131na kadar a\u00e7!” diye dua ederken, kendi kap\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ard\u0131ndaki bo\u015flu\u011fu g\u00f6rmenin h\u00fczn\u00fcyle hemh\u00e2l olmu\u015fuz. Bir \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck dualardan, bir g\u00f6r\u00fcml\u00fck r\u00fcyalara d\u00fc\u015fmenin sanc\u0131s\u0131 var i\u00e7imizde. Geceler biriktirdik s\u00fcsl\u00fc sand\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zda ve hi\u00e7…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":17197,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[145,144,282,299],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17186","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dusunce","category-edeb","category-hatice-derin-silahli","category-mart-26","category-145","category-144","category-282","category-299","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/resized_ba45a-3416bbf8namaz.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17186"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=17186"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17186\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17187,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17186\/revisions\/17187"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/17197"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=17186"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=17186"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=17186"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}