Sessizli\u011fin ta\u015flar\u0131 alt\u0131ndan son bir g\u00fc\u00e7le \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum, i\u00e7imdeki kalabal\u0131\u011fa selam vererek:<\/p>\n
\u201cEssel\u00e2mu aleyk\u00fcm yerin ve g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn sahibinden b\u00eehaber nefes alan \u00f6l\u00fcler; Musa\u2019n\u0131n asas\u0131ndan, \u0130sa\u2019n\u0131n duas\u0131ndan nasiplenemeyenler…\u201d<\/p>\n
“Fark etmez” dediklerimi fark etti\u011fim g\u00fcn\u00fcn sabah\u0131na amenn\u00e2; d\u00f6rt kitab\u0131n \u0130lah\u0131na hamd\u00fcsen\u00e2…<\/p>\n
Nazarl\u0131 bir bak\u0131\u015fla \u00e7atlayan k\u00fct\u00fck gibi; olandan ve kendimden muaf… Sayfalar\u0131 kopar\u0131lan kitaplar\u0131n darmada\u011f\u0131n olmu\u015f c\u00fcmleleri gibi savruk d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerimi seriyorum bir sofra bezine. Ya\u015fken yenmez bunlar, kuruyunca hi\u00e7 yenmez. Yenecek gibi de\u011fil zira. Bir k\u00f6pr\u00fcn\u00fcn en ihti\u015faml\u0131 yerinden, itibarl\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fclerin k\u00fclleri gibi savurulsun heybetli bir nehire.<\/p>\n
\u00dc\u00e7ler, Be\u015fler ve K\u0131rklar\u0131n nidas\u0131yla: H\u00fb!<\/p>\n
Ey yarat\u0131lm\u0131\u015flara tedbir ald\u0131ran, tedbir alana tekbir ald\u0131ran Hayy; ahvalini bilmedi\u011fimiz s\u0131rlara H\u0131z\u0131r\u2019\u0131 yolda\u015f eyle…<\/p>\n
Kimsesizler mabedine do\u011fru \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m yoku\u015fta, heybeme toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ak\u0131l ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 adland\u0131rd\u0131m bir bir. Halim ve M\u00fcntakim olan Allah\u2019\u0131n ad\u0131yla:<\/p>\n
Elif, L\u00e2m, M\u00eem, R\u00e2…<\/p>\n
Bu Habil\u2019di, bu Kabil; kimi nefesti cismi cana, kimi ise rezil r\u00fcsva…<\/p>\n
Yar\u0131m asr\u0131, koca bir g\u00fcn ve bir gece gibi deviren mah\u015fer atl\u0131s\u0131 kadar bitkin s\u00f6zlerin t\u0131n\u0131s\u0131nda; yar\u0131 uyur yar\u0131 gezer haldeyim. Kalbimde g\u00fcz sisi, kalbimde mezar sessizli\u011fi…<\/p>\n
Vicdan ile kurban edilmi\u015flerin kaderinde, y\u00f6r\u00fcngesinden \u00e7\u0131kan ba\u015f\u0131bo\u015f bir dolunay misali gezinir ruhum. Bir \u00f6m\u00fcr yol gitmi\u015f de bir \u00f6mr\u00fc heba etmi\u015f gibi; bir \u00f6mr\u00fc y\u0131ld\u0131zlarla s\u00fcsleyip o y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n dibine g\u00f6m\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f gibi.<\/p>\n
Ruhum ruhunu par\u00e7alarken zalimin; ruhum ruhunda par\u00e7alan\u0131r mazlumun. Silemedi\u011fim her g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131nda \u015fuurumu yitirircesine bo\u011fulurken, acziyetin ar\u015fa ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerde en karas\u0131ndan bir kederin kollar\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131p h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131r kalbim:<\/p>\n
\u201cEli bo\u015f gidilmez gidilen yere,<\/p>\n
Rabbim bo\u015f gelmedim, ben su\u00e7 getirdim.<\/p>\n
Da\u011flar \u00e7ekemezken bu a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fc,<\/p>\n
\u0130ki kat s\u0131rt\u0131mda pek g\u00fc\u00e7 getirdim.\u201d<\/p>\n
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Sessizli\u011fin ta\u015flar\u0131 alt\u0131ndan son bir g\u00fc\u00e7le \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum, i\u00e7imdeki kalabal\u0131\u011fa selam vererek: \u201cEssel\u00e2mu aleyk\u00fcm yerin ve g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn sahibinden b\u00eehaber nefes alan \u00f6l\u00fcler; Musa\u2019n\u0131n asas\u0131ndan, \u0130sa\u2019n\u0131n duas\u0131ndan nasiplenemeyenler…\u201d “Fark etmez” dediklerimi fark etti\u011fim g\u00fcn\u00fcn sabah\u0131na amenn\u00e2; d\u00f6rt kitab\u0131n \u0130lah\u0131na hamd\u00fcsen\u00e2… Nazarl\u0131 bir bak\u0131\u015fla \u00e7atlayan k\u00fct\u00fck gibi; olandan ve kendimden muaf… Sayfalar\u0131 kopar\u0131lan kitaplar\u0131n darmada\u011f\u0131n olmu\u015f c\u00fcmleleri gibi…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":17143,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[145,282,298],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17118","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dusunce","category-hatice-derin-silahli","category-subat-26","category-145","category-282","category-298","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"aioseo_head":"\n\t\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t