Annem vefat edeli iki hafta oldu bile. Zaman, ac\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinden sessizce ge\u00e7ti. Takvim yapraklar\u0131 bir bir d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc; ben fark\u0131na varmadan zaman yol ald\u0131. Halb\u00fbki ac\u0131 hafiflese de yerli yerinde duruyor. Zaman\u0131n ge\u00e7ti\u011fini ak\u0131l s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor ama kalp hen\u00fcz tam ikna olmu\u015f de\u011fil. \u0130nsan, kay\u0131pla birlikte saatlerin ne kadar ac\u0131mas\u0131zca i\u015fledi\u011fini ve zaman\u0131n asl\u0131nda ne kadar h\u0131zl\u0131 ve ne kadar umursamaz oldu\u011funu fark ediyor. D\u00fcn gibi dedi\u011fimiz \u015fey, bir bakm\u0131\u015f\u0131z onbe\u015f g\u00fcn olmu\u015f. Hayat da b\u00f6yle i\u015fte; ya\u015farken uzun, geriye d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda bir \u201cNe \u00e7abuk\u201dtan ibaret kal\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
\u00d6l\u00fcm, uzakta san\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda soyut; yak\u0131na geldi\u011finde ise fazlas\u0131yla ger\u00e7ek. Bir isimle, bir sesle, bir y\u00fczle anlam kazan\u0131yor. Annemin ard\u0131ndan daha iyi anlad\u0131m ki \u00f6l\u00fcm sadece gidenin de\u011fil, kalan\u0131n da imtihan\u0131. Ve insan, en \u00e7ok da sevdiklerini topra\u011fa verdi\u011finde d\u00fcnyan\u0131n asl\u0131nda ne kadar ge\u00e7ici bir durak oldu\u011funu idrak ediyor.<\/p>\n
\u00d6l\u00fcm, \u00e7o\u011fu zaman ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na gelen bir haber gibi. Ta ki evin i\u00e7ine girene kadar. Bir koltu\u011fun bo\u015flu\u011fu, bir sesin eksikli\u011fi, bir kap\u0131n\u0131n art\u0131k a\u00e7\u0131lmamas\u0131yla ger\u00e7ek oluyor. O an anl\u0131yoruz ki \u00f6l\u00fcm sadece bir son de\u011fil; kalanlar i\u00e7in derin bir hat\u0131rlatma. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n ge\u00e7icili\u011fini, ba\u011fland\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n emanet oldu\u011funu usulca ama sars\u0131c\u0131 bi\u00e7imde \u00f6\u011fretiyor.<\/p>\n
\u201cHer nefis \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc tadacakt\u0131r\u201d ayeti, y\u0131llard\u0131r bildi\u011fimiz ama \u00e7o\u011fu zaman unuttu\u011fumuz bir hakikati tekrar tekrar \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze koyuyor. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn kendisi de\u011fil belki de as\u0131l mesele; onu yok sayarak ya\u015famak, hi\u00e7 gelmeyecekmi\u015f gibi pl\u00e2nlar yapmak. Oysa \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc hat\u0131rda tutmak; hayattan vazge\u00e7mek de\u011fil, hayat\u0131 daha bilin\u00e7li, daha ahl\u00e2kl\u0131 ve daha merhametli ya\u015famakt\u0131r.<\/p>\n
\u00d6l\u00fcm tad\u0131lan bir \u015fey gibi\u2026 Belki de tatmak ifadesinden kas\u0131t, insan\u0131n her h\u00fccresiyle hissetti\u011finin vurgulanmas\u0131 olabilir. Hem lezzetin hem azab\u0131n, hem serinli\u011fin, hem \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn insan\u0131n her zerresine geldi\u011finin a\u00e7\u0131klamas\u0131…<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan ruhu i\u00e7in \u00f6lmek diye bir \u015fey yok; ruh boyut de\u011fi\u015ftiriyor ve sonsuza kadar ya\u015f\u0131yor. As\u0131l olan beden de\u011fil ruh oldu\u011fu ve onun i\u00e7in de \u00f6l\u00fcm s\u00f6z konusu olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6re \u00f6l\u00fcm ac\u0131 veya tatl\u0131, tad\u0131lacak bir \u015fey olmal\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan\u0131n sonsuzlu\u011fu arzulamas\u0131 i\u00e7in “ge\u00e7i\u015f kap\u0131s\u0131” olan \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bilmesi gerekiyor ki sonsuzlu\u011fun ne b\u00fcy\u00fck nimet oldu\u011funu anlayabilsin. S\u0131cak so\u011fukla, iyi k\u00f6t\u00fcyle, ayd\u0131nl\u0131k karanl\u0131kla, tatl\u0131 da ac\u0131yla biliniyor. Ac\u0131y\u0131 tadan insan, akl\u0131na hep tatl\u0131y\u0131 getiriyor. A\u011fz\u0131nda kalan ac\u0131 tad\u0131 hep hat\u0131rlamas\u0131, ayn\u0131 \u015feyi tatmamak i\u00e7in bir uyar\u0131c\u0131, bir cayd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 olabilir.<\/p>\n
Ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lm\u0131yor ama vakti de bilinmiyor ki \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn kendisi de\u011fil, onu unutmu\u015f gibi ya\u015famam\u0131z as\u0131l yan\u0131lg\u0131. Eskiler bo\u015funa dememi\u015f: \u201c\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc hat\u0131rda tutmak, kalbi diri tutar.\u201d \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fcm, hayata d\u00fc\u015fman de\u011fil; hayat\u0131 ciddiye ald\u0131ran en hakiki \u00f6\u011fretmen. D\u00fcnya fani \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. Muhtemelen bu y\u00fczden \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7ok zikrederdi eskiler. Bilirlerdi ki \u00f6l\u00fcm, insan\u0131n pusulas\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Yunus Emre, \u201c\u00d6len hayvan imi\u015f, \u00e2\u015f\u0131klar \u00f6lmez\u201d diyerek ard\u0131nda iz b\u0131rakan bir hayat\u0131 hat\u0131rlat\u0131yor. Yunus\u2019un, iz b\u0131rakan bir hayat\u0131 i\u015faret etmesi bo\u015funa de\u011fil. \u00d6l\u00fcm, hayat\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131t\u0131 de\u011fil; onu anlaml\u0131 k\u0131lan son \u00e7izgi. O \u00e7izgi olmasa, ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k ve savruk kal\u0131rd\u0131. Demek ki mesele \u00f6lmek de\u011fil; nas\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, neye tutundu\u011fumuz, kimlere iyi geldi\u011fimiz ve belki de en \u00f6nemlisi \u00f6nden ne yollad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z.<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan, en \u00e7ok kay\u0131pta sadele\u015fiyor. Belki de bu y\u00fczden \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc hep hat\u0131rda tutmak gerekiyor. Korkmak i\u00e7in de\u011fil; uyan\u0131k kalmak i\u00e7in. Daha az k\u0131rmak, daha \u00e7ok affetmek, daha samimi, daha Allah\u2019\u0131n ho\u015fnutlu\u011funu g\u00f6zeterek ya\u015famak i\u00e7in. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc hayat, bir g\u00fcn d\u00f6n\u00fcp, \u201cNe \u00e7abuk ge\u00e7ti\u201d diyece\u011fimiz kadar k\u0131sa. \u00d6l\u00fcm ise bu ger\u00e7e\u011fi unutmamam\u0131z i\u00e7in sessizce kap\u0131da bekleyen bir hakikat. Hayat\u0131n tek kesin hakikati.<\/p>\n
Annemin ard\u0131ndan kalan bo\u015fluk, bana \u015funu f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yor: Zaman k\u0131sa, s\u00f6zler s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131, ertelemeler ise fazlas\u0131yla gereksiz. Helalle\u015fmek, affetmek, \u015f\u00fckretmek ve sevmek i\u00e7in \u201cSonra\u201d diye bir l\u00fcks\u00fcm\u00fcz yok. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc hat\u0131rda tutmak; karamsarl\u0131k de\u011fil, bilakis daha sahici bir hayat \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u0130ki hafta ge\u00e7ti. Yar\u0131n on olacak, belki sonra yirmi\u2026 Ama hakikat de\u011fi\u015fmeyecek: Hayat, \u201dBir g\u00f6z a\u00e7\u0131p kapama s\u00fcresi\u201d kadar k\u0131sa. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc unutmadan ya\u015famak ise, bu k\u0131sac\u0131k hayata anlam katman\u0131n belki de tek yolu.<\/p>\n
\u00d6l\u00fcm, hayat\u0131n zorlu ve a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fcklerinden bir t\u00fcr kurtulu\u015f. \u00d6l\u00fcm asl\u0131nda bir nimet. Allah\u2019a derin sevgiyle ba\u011fl\u0131 insan i\u00e7in Rabbine kavu\u015fma y\u00f6n\u00fcnde tad\u0131lacak bir nimet\u2026<\/p>\n
Her nefis \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc tad\u0131c\u0131d\u0131r. K\u0131yamet g\u00fcn\u00fc elbette ecirleriniz eksiksizce \u00f6denecektir. Kim ate\u015ften uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r ve cennete sokulursa, art\u0131k o ger\u00e7ekten kurtulu\u015fa ermi\u015ftir. D\u00fcnya hayat\u0131, aldat\u0131c\u0131 metadan ba\u015fka bir \u015fey de\u011fildir. (Ali \u0130mran Suresi, 185)<\/p>\n
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Annem vefat edeli iki hafta oldu bile. Zaman, ac\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinden sessizce ge\u00e7ti. Takvim yapraklar\u0131 bir bir d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc; ben fark\u0131na varmadan zaman yol ald\u0131. Halb\u00fbki ac\u0131 hafiflese de yerli yerinde duruyor. Zaman\u0131n ge\u00e7ti\u011fini ak\u0131l s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor ama kalp hen\u00fcz tam ikna olmu\u015f de\u011fil. \u0130nsan, kay\u0131pla birlikte saatlerin ne kadar ac\u0131mas\u0131zca i\u015fledi\u011fini ve zaman\u0131n asl\u0131nda ne kadar h\u0131zl\u0131…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":17147,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[145,151,298],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17109","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dusunce","category-elifebayraktar","category-subat-26","category-145","category-151","category-298","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/17702469953401.png","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17109"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=17109"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17109\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17110,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17109\/revisions\/17110"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/17147"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=17109"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=17109"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=17109"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}