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Aral\u0131k\u2026 Kap\u0131 aral\u0131k. Sessiz gecede. Iss\u0131z yolda. Bir ba\u015f\u0131ma. Karda k\u0131\u015fta. Ad\u0131mlar\u0131m bo\u015flukta. Karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ortas\u0131nda. Bir ay \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 kald\u0131 d\u00fcnyamda\u2026<\/p>\n
\u0130ki yan\u0131m var i\u00e7 i\u00e7e: \u00c7ocuk yan\u0131m; h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n, susmuyor, a\u011fl\u0131yor, s\u0131zl\u0131yor, feryat figan\u2026 Di\u011fer yan\u0131m; ge\u00e7mi\u015f kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na, anlat\u0131yor, tatl\u0131 dille, tebess\u00fcmle, i\u00e7ten, g\u00f6n\u00fclden, aralar\u0131na \u00f6\u011f\u00fctler serpi\u015ftirilmi\u015f masallar uyduruyor durmadan.<\/p>\n
Gecenin sonu g\u00fcnd\u00fczd\u00fcr, k\u0131\u015f\u0131n sonu bahard\u0131r. Baz\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar gece gibidir; sadece saatler sonra g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u2026 Baz\u0131lar\u0131 k\u0131\u015f gibi; aylar, aylar, aylar sonra bahar. Bazen bunlar ardarda gelir. \u00d6nce geceyi ya\u015fars\u0131n, sonra k\u0131\u015f ba\u015flar; aldan\u0131rs\u0131n, k\u0131\u015f\u0131 gece gibi \u00e7abuk ge\u00e7er san\u0131rs\u0131n. Bir gece vakti m\u00fcddet dolunca, gelmedi g\u00fcnd\u00fcz, sonu yok diye b\u0131rak\u0131rs\u0131n; aldan\u0131rs\u0131n, seni bahar bekler, lakin ula\u015famazs\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Bazen bir k\u0131\u015f atlat\u0131l\u0131r da baharda gelen bir geceye katlanamazs\u0131n, san\u0131rs\u0131n aylar var \u00f6n\u00fcnde, bitmez bu \u00e7ile, ge\u00e7mez bu gece. Bekleyemezsin sadece saatler sonraki g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fc, g\u00fcne\u015fi, sabah\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Masal bitti, a\u00e7t\u0131m g\u00f6zlerimi, usulca ge\u00e7tim kar\u015f\u0131ya. Masum sorular\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm \u00e7ocuk yan\u0131ma geldi i\u015fte. A\u011flamak, oyunu. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131, oynad\u0131k\u00e7a kaybetti\u011fi en de\u011ferli oyuncaklar\u0131 \u015fimdi. Sonuna kadar \u2018neden?\u2019 doldurmu\u015f i\u00e7ini, taa diline kadar? \u0130zin vermemi\u015f, dili d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karamam\u0131\u015f hi\u00e7birini. \u201cNas\u0131l?\u2019lar\u0131n hi\u00e7birinin cevab\u0131 bu \u2018neden?\u2019e yard\u0131m edememi\u015f.<\/p>\n
Konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flayan \u00e7ocuk, \u201cBu d\u00fcnya bana dar. Bir yan\u0131m darg\u0131n, \u00e7ok darg\u0131n.\u2019 diyor. \u2018Bundan sonra\u2019 ne ge\u00e7kin bir ifadedir. \u2018Art\u0131k\u2019 kadar zavall\u0131 kelime, gelmesin c\u00fcmlelerime. \u00c7ocuk y\u00fcre\u011fimle, y\u00fcre\u011fimi koyaca\u011f\u0131m yerin belirsizli\u011findeki karma\u015f\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 hi\u00e7bir s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn tesellisi kurtaramaz.<\/p>\n
Masal yeniden, yeni masaldan c\u00fcmleler. Kudreti Sonsuz Padi\u015fah, herkes i\u00e7in bir kap\u0131 aralam\u0131\u015f. Kap\u0131 aral\u0131k. Yaramazl\u0131klar\u0131 b\u0131rakmayan \u00e7ocuklar bu kap\u0131dan ge\u00e7emezmi\u015f, aral\u0131k olsa dahi. Kap\u0131 neden aral\u0131k? Rahmetten, merhametten, \u015fefkatten. S\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 ve sonlu. \u015eefkatli insanlar aras\u0131nda, Sonsuz \u015eefkat Eli de\u011fmedik\u00e7e b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015fler k\u0131rg\u0131n, yorgun, suskun. B\u00fct\u00fcn masallar ac\u0131mas\u0131z, do\u011frusuz, tutars\u0131z. Allah\u0131m! A\u00e7 rahmet kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ard\u0131na kadar ve al inayetinin i\u00e7ine ikimizi\/bizi\/hepimizi.<\/p>\n
\u0130stanbul\u2026 Sana anlat\u0131yorum t\u00fcm bunlar\u0131. Huzurla, i\u00e7im rahat sadece sana yaz\u0131yorum t\u00fcm olanlar\u0131. \u0130stanbul\u2026 Uzaktas\u0131n. Uzakl\u0131k yak\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa ula\u015fan en kestirme yol olsun. Sorular var akl\u0131mda \u0130stanbul. D\u00f6ksem g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131, denizleri ta\u015f\u0131rmadan. S\u00f6yler misin bana k\u0131r\u0131k bir kalp en g\u00fczel hangi \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 s\u00f6yler? Ayr\u0131l\u0131klardan \u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7ocuksu bir y\u00fcrek hangi masalla avutulur? Ve anlat\u0131r m\u0131s\u0131n \u0130stanbul, gurbetteki a\u015f\u0131klar vuslat\u0131 nas\u0131l bekler? Var m\u0131 ba\u015fka ayr\u0131l\u0131k beklemesi buna benzeyen\u2026<\/p>\n
Sen\u2026 Kapanmak istemeyen, yola bakmaktan yorulmayan g\u00f6zlerim! Sen benim i\u00e7in g\u00f6kten \u015fefkat d\u00fc\u015fecek diye hi\u00e7 kapatamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m avu\u00e7 i\u00e7imsin. Her an\u0131mda \u015f\u00fckretmeye \u00e7abalay\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131n ete kemi\u011fe, ta\u015fa topra\u011fa b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f hali sensin\u2026 Bakal\u0131m beklenen g\u00f6zler, \u015fefkatle mayal\u0131 muhabbet g\u00f6zleri ne zaman senin avu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ine bakacak ve nas\u0131l yans\u0131yacak?…<\/p>\n
Ay\u015fe Revan<\/p>\n
29 Kas\u0131m 2010<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Aral\u0131k\u2026 Kap\u0131 aral\u0131k. Sessiz gecede. Iss\u0131z yolda. Bir ba\u015f\u0131ma. Karda k\u0131\u015fta. Ad\u0131mlar\u0131m bo\u015flukta. Karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ortas\u0131nda. Bir ay \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 kald\u0131 d\u00fcnyamda\u2026 \u0130ki yan\u0131m var i\u00e7 i\u00e7e: \u00c7ocuk yan\u0131m; h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n, susmuyor, a\u011fl\u0131yor, s\u0131zl\u0131yor, feryat figan\u2026 Di\u011fer yan\u0131m; ge\u00e7mi\u015f kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na, anlat\u0131yor, tatl\u0131 dille, tebess\u00fcmle, i\u00e7ten, g\u00f6n\u00fclden, aralar\u0131na \u00f6\u011f\u00fctler serpi\u015ftirilmi\u015f masallar uyduruyor durmadan. Gecenin sonu g\u00fcnd\u00fczd\u00fcr, k\u0131\u015f\u0131n sonu…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":16709,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[279,277,144,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16685","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-aralik-24","category-ayse-revan","category-edeb","category-yazarlar","category-279","category-277","category-144","category-4","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/28B2733B-9A01-4C26-A1F0-604267CCB5FC.png","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16685"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=16685"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16685\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16705,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16685\/revisions\/16705"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/16709"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=16685"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=16685"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=16685"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}