\u00a0\u00a0 Bir Nisan ak\u015fam\u0131 k\u00f6\u015fede sokak lambas\u0131n\u0131n ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda iri ya\u011fmur taneleriyle bulu\u015ftu\u011fumuz gen\u00e7lik g\u00fcnlerinden sorunsuz ve sorumsuz hercailikler ak\u0131yordu kald\u0131r\u0131mlara. Islak sokaklar, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyen ta\u015flar kadar ta\u015fk\u0131n sular\u0131n oluklardan \u015fim\u015feklerce iniverdi\u011fi duvar diplerinde \u0131slanan pa\u00e7alar\u0131m\u0131zla mutluluk r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131k bizler! Mahalle denilince, Rahm-i Mader misali s\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u011f\u0131m\u0131zla ortalarda ve t\u00fcm benli\u011fimizle ait oldu\u011fumuz evlerin duvarlar\u0131na diziliyordu umutlar\u0131m\u0131z. A\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ve a\u015fklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kutsallar\u0131m\u0131zla mecz ederek y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz yollar\u0131m\u0131z tozlu, fakat tertemiz nispetsiz ak\u0131yorlard\u0131 menzillere. Bazen bir tutkunun, bazen bir sevdaya d\u00f6\u015fenmi\u015f s\u0131ral\u0131 ta\u015flar\u0131n \u00fczerinde hep bu yollar\u0131n izleri, baharda leylak ve yazlar\u0131 han\u0131melleriyle serfiraz kokular\u0131m\u0131zla mutluluktan u\u00e7uyorduk. Ya\u015fam\u0131n \u0130lahi i\u015faretlerini fark eden masum y\u00fcre\u011fimizle dostluklar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z \u00fczerine koyup, yine ayn\u0131 duygular\u0131m\u0131zla en haylaz s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 zorluyorduk. Deli\u015fmenliklerimiz ve hesaps\u0131z cevvaliyetlerin alt\u0131nda kalan benliklerimiz, bir arkada\u015f\u0131n en yak\u0131n ihtiyac\u0131na ko\u015facak kadar asildiler.<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Zorba g\u00fcnlerin ve kader-i \u0130lahi plan\u0131nda ki t\u00fcm musibetlere dayanacak kadar mahallemiz ve zamans\u0131z esen ayr\u0131l\u0131k r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131na dayanacak mesafelerimiz vard\u0131. Bu G\u00f6k kubbenin alt\u0131nda ne g\u00fcnlere yand\u0131 insanl\u0131k, \u015fu K\u00fcre-i arz\u0131n \u00fczerinde hangi buzdan y\u0131llar\u0131 t\u00fckettik sayamad\u0131k! Eskiciden al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f bir siyah-beyaz foto\u011frafta gizli her \u015fey ve an\u0131lardan d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya f\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f haylaz \u00e7ocuklar misali r\u00fcyalara uzan\u0131yor \u015fimdi \u00f6zlemler. \u0130lkbahar sevinciyle evlere dolu\u015fan rayihalar sinerdi ah\u015fap ve kerpi\u00e7ten hayatlara. Cumbal\u0131 ve \u00e7\u0131kmal\u0131 hayli fazla hat\u0131raya imzas\u0131n\u0131 atm\u0131\u015f sokaklar\u0131m\u0131zda, \u015fimdi yeni D\u00fcnyalar\u0131n bitmeyen h\u0131rslar\u0131 ve O\u2019nun yeni nesillerince kay\u0131plar var bu \u015fehirde. \u0130zlerinde bile \u015fansl\u0131 bir mevsimin hangi deminde olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmedi\u011fin ya\u011fmurlar\u0131nca ya\u011fmadalar umutlar\u0131na ve sorup durdu\u011fun Cennet \u00dclkesi, \u015fimdi o be\u011fenmedi\u011fin eskicinin tozlu raflar\u0131nda a\u00e7\u0131lacak ve kapanmayacak bir ba\u015fka bahar\u0131n umuduyla beklemedeler.<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00fcne\u015fin yedi rengine ram olmu\u015f \u015fiirlerinde hangi makamda t\u00fcrk\u00fclerimiz vard\u0131 bizim? Ve bir son bahar\u0131n sildi\u011fi izlerinde kimlere yak\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Alevlerin? Bir ikindi zaman\u0131 soka\u011f\u0131n hemen ini\u015finde \u015femsiyene vurunca ya\u011fmur damlalar\u0131, \u00fcrperten Nisan serinli\u011finden ge\u00e7erek devam ediyordu \u0131slak hayallerimiz. Liseli bir d\u00f6nemin tarifsiz hazlar\u0131yla uzun yollar\u0131n k\u0131sac\u0131k ve say\u0131s\u0131z manalar\u0131nda hep bu hik\u00e2yelerce a\u011fl\u0131yor \u015fimdi alb\u00fcmler! Ya\u011fmurlar ya\u011f\u0131nca eski bir kap\u0131dan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 f\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f uslanmaz delilikler doluyor sinelere ve ayn\u0131 soka\u011f\u0131n bitmeyen \u015fark\u0131s\u0131, \u015fimdi son bahar\u0131n kollar\u0131nda mahsun ve masumlar \u00e7ocuklarca kar\u015f\u0131ndalar. \u2018\u2019R\u00fczg\u00e2r gibi ge\u00e7ti\u2019\u2019 filmine her insandan ba\u015fka bir hik\u00e2ye ve her devriden ba\u015fka kinayeler var! Ge\u00e7enler ge\u00e7iyor derler ya, sak\u0131n inanma buna sen! Ge\u00e7en ne bir zamand\u0131r, nede beyhude ge\u00e7en ve korkarak say\u0131p durdu\u011fumuz y\u0131llard\u0131r. Vakit diye ellerimizle sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015fey, K\u00e2inatta bir kar\u0131nca misali, deryada katre gibi, toz gibi bir \u015fey ve oyalan\u0131p durdu\u011fumuz hayat\u0131n i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7ilecek menzillere bir kap\u0131, belki de sonsuzlu\u011fa uzanacak yolun \u2018\u2019zamans\u0131z, vakitsiz \u2018\u2019ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ellerimizle b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz hik\u00e2yelerden artan s\u0131z\u0131nt\u0131lar burkuyor y\u00fcrekleri. De\u011fi\u015fen D\u00fcnya\u2019n\u0131n vah\u015fi kurallar\u0131na kap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f nesillerinde umursamaz tav\u0131rlar ac\u0131t\u0131yor bizi! Hayat\u0131n anlams\u0131zla\u015ft\u0131ran ak\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar\u0131na yenilmi\u015f ya\u015famlar\u0131 anlamak zor. Kalbin elmas misali hisselerine kapanm\u0131\u015f kap\u0131lar\u0131n ard\u0131nda so\u011fuk r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar ve ebediyete kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f nice g\u00fczelliklerin mezar ta\u015flar\u0131na okunacak Fatihalar\u0131n manzaras\u0131nday\u0131z. \u0130nsan olman\u0131n dayan\u0131lmaz gafletine yenilmi\u015f g\u00fcnl\u00fcklerimizle ortalarday\u0131z!<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0 Ars\u0131zca kesti\u011fimiz ahk\u00e2mlar\u0131n ayaklar\u0131m\u0131za vurulmu\u015f zincirlere d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc bekliyoruz zavall\u0131 bir mek\u00e2n\u0131n dibinden! Oysa yine \u015fuur sahibi olabilmenin kusursuzlu\u011fuyla devam edilecek yolarda, egolar\u0131m\u0131zla yapayaln\u0131z, aciz ve \u00e7aresiz g\u00fcnleri say\u0131p d\u00f6k\u00fcyoruz hesaps\u0131zca! Al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z ve adetlerimizin kollar\u0131nda hakikatlere kapad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kap\u0131lar, asl\u0131nda bekaya uzanacak yollar\u0131n en muhte\u015fem k\u0131vr\u0131m\u0131na indirdi\u011fimiz darbelerle siliniyor buralardan sessiz sedas\u0131z!<\/p>\n
HAKAN ESEN<\/p>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0 Bir Nisan ak\u015fam\u0131 k\u00f6\u015fede sokak lambas\u0131n\u0131n ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda iri ya\u011fmur taneleriyle bulu\u015ftu\u011fumuz gen\u00e7lik g\u00fcnlerinden sorunsuz ve sorumsuz hercailikler ak\u0131yordu kald\u0131r\u0131mlara. Islak sokaklar, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyen ta\u015flar kadar ta\u015fk\u0131n sular\u0131n oluklardan \u015fim\u015feklerce iniverdi\u011fi duvar diplerinde \u0131slanan pa\u00e7alar\u0131m\u0131zla mutluluk r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131k bizler! Mahalle denilince, Rahm-i Mader misali s\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u011f\u0131m\u0131zla ortalarda ve t\u00fcm benli\u011fimizle ait oldu\u011fumuz evlerin duvarlar\u0131na diziliyordu umutlar\u0131m\u0131z. A\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":16606,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[145,264,265],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16600","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dusunce","category-eylul-24","category-hakan-esen","category-145","category-264","category-265","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/09\/DnBvZ3A1tEaluN-ggVXIuA.jpg.webp","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16600"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=16600"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16600\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16613,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16600\/revisions\/16613"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/16606"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=16600"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=16600"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=16600"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}