Canca\u011f\u0131z\u0131m…<\/p>\n
G\u00f6n\u00fcl yolda\u015f\u0131m…<\/p>\n
Allah’\u0131n (c.c) Azamet’ini arac\u0131 yaparak me\u015fgul oldu\u011funuz anlarda beni g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcze hapsetmenizi istemi\u015ftim. Hat\u0131rlars\u0131n\u0131z sabah\u0131n bitiminde ki halleri. O an ayr\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131zla bana Allah’\u0131n (c.c) Cel\u00e2let’ini ve Azamet’ini azda olsa hissettirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131n\u0131z. \u00d6yle bir sefere r\u00e2m oldum ki elem gecelerimde a\u011flayan kalpca\u011f\u0131z\u0131m yine dayanamad\u0131. Ge\u00e7icide olsa ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z hicrana gark eyledi y\u00fcre\u011fimi.<\/p>\n
S\u0131rlar kezz\u00e2b. S\u00f6zler harab… Gel de bak g\u00f6nl\u00fcme bu ak\u015fam neler oldu…<\/p>\n
Bir Cuma vakti, hutbelerin g\u00f6n\u00fcllere okundu\u011fu zaman s\u00eenenize s\u0131z\u0131m s\u0131z\u0131m s\u0131zlan\u0131p saplanan a\u011f\u0131d\u0131n notas\u0131n\u0131 ka\u011f\u0131t \u00fczerine \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda ac\u0131lar i\u00e7indeki o farkl\u0131 a\u011f\u0131t sizi de selamlay\u0131p g\u00f6klere u\u00e7acak in\u015faallah. All\u00e2mel-\u011euy\u00fbb olan Allah’t\u0131r (c.c).<\/p>\n
Hub medresesinde alimlik gibi olmasa da o \u00e2limlere yak\u0131n olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f ama ba\u015faramam\u0131\u015f harb\u00ee fever\u00e2n\u0131n sakl\u0131 olan selam\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131n\u0131z ki g\u00f6n\u00fcller rahatlas\u0131n…..<\/p>\n
Hallerimden b\u00eezarim. Ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 tercih edip vuslat i\u00e7inde s\u0131zlayan\u0131m. Kor gecelerde saklanan\u0131m. Ac\u0131lar\u0131n verdi\u011fi hafakanlar\u0131 kap\u0131n\u0131za sa\u00e7an\u0131m. Ne elimde kalanlar! Ne de h\u00e2f\u0131zamda olanlar ! Cehennem g\u00f6nl\u00fcmde sadece mezarlar!<\/p>\n
“Mezar benim” demi\u015ftim! “G\u00f6nl\u00fcmde sadece kendi mezar\u0131m olsun” demi\u015ftim. G\u00fcnler, aylar, seneler ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e mezar\u0131m\u0131 bar\u0131nd\u0131ran g\u00f6n\u00fcl yer yetersizli\u011finden dolay\u0131 beni kap\u0131 d\u0131\u015far\u0131 etti. Alimallah beni d\u0131\u015far\u0131 att\u0131! Ve \u015fimdilerde terliklerimi yol \u00fcst\u00fcne f\u0131rlat\u0131p ayak yal\u0131n ate\u015fin \u00fczerinden ge\u00e7meye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n zann\u0131yla k\u0131vran\u0131yorum. “Zan” diyorum! Bilen sadece Allah’t\u0131r (c.c).<\/p>\n
Bana g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz yerde a\u011fz\u0131ma ne gelirse s\u00f6yleme k\u00fcstahl\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7erisine giriyorum. Bu hallerin \u00f6n\u00fcne ge\u00e7emedi\u011fim i\u00e7in, vaktinizi \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in, masa ba\u015f\u0131nda sizi me\u015fgul edip sinirlere-kederlere d\u00fb\u00e7ar etti\u011fim i\u00e7in “beni hapsedin” dedim.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcze haps edin. T\u0131pk\u0131 bu ak\u015fam “A\u015fk\u00e2battan” gelen a\u011f\u0131d\u0131 kalbime hapsetti\u011fim gibi… Y\u0131llar y\u0131l\u0131 o g\u00f6n\u00fcllerde ebed\u00ee hapsolman\u0131n yollar\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131m. Ne yaz\u0131k ki yol g\u00f6sterenede bir defac\u0131k olsun kulak asamad\u0131m. Allah (c.c) beni affetsin…<\/p>\n
Firar hayat\u0131mda hep bunu hayal ettim. Merhametli bak\u0131\u015f… Mehabbetli yakar\u0131\u015f! Bir sel\u00e2m! Bir kel\u00e2m! Bunu beklemi\u015ftim. Nevruz’un bid\u00e2yetinden bu yana onlardan da vazge\u00e7tim.<\/p>\n
\u015eimdilerde sadece sukut edenlerden ders almak istiyorum. Bir hikmete bin\u00e2en suk\u00fbt eden o g\u00f6n\u00fcllerde gizlenmek istiyorum. G\u00fcn gelir “o g\u00f6n\u00fcllerde ki s\u0131rlara vak\u0131f olur gelecek nesillere kaynak te\u015fkil edecek \u00e2lemleri kaydederim” demi\u015ftim. Bilmem ki hangi Hul\u00e2gu yang\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6n\u00fcllerinizde ki kaydedilmi\u015f \u00e2lemleri yakabilsin? Ate\u015fin yakamayaca\u011f\u0131 yer, harplerin yenemeyece\u011fi yer sizlerin kainata meydan okuyan nurlu g\u00f6n\u00fcllerinizdedir…<\/p>\n
Nihayete yakla\u015f\u0131rken iyi ki ricam erci diye cevap verme l\u00fctfunda bulundular. Bug\u00fcnk\u00fc dersin alameti k\u0131yamet olacakm\u0131\u015f me\u011fer…<\/p>\n
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