{"id":15933,"date":"2023-05-25T15:56:38","date_gmt":"2023-05-25T12:56:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/?p=15933"},"modified":"2023-05-27T01:27:32","modified_gmt":"2023-05-26T22:27:32","slug":"hoscakal-ey-can","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/2023\/05\/25\/hoscakal-ey-can\/","title":{"rendered":"Ho\u015f\u00e7akal Ey C\u00e2n!"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00dczg\u00fcn\u00fcm ama ey c\u00e2n, m\u00fcsaadenle \u00f6lmem l\u00e2z\u0131m. B\u00e2ki kalmam i\u00e7in bu d\u00fcnyada bir mukavele yapmaya yana\u015fmad\u0131\/yana\u015fm\u0131yor kimse. Yalvar yakar vazge\u00e7iremiyorum kimseyi. Vazge\u00e7irsem de nafile de\u011fil mi sanki? Her \u015fey f\u00e2nilerin elinde mi? S\u00f6zle\u015fmeyi d\u00fcnyaya gelmeden yapmad\u0131k m\u0131 biz?<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nBir y\u00fcz sene daha ya\u015fasam diyorum ama nafile. Bir y\u00fcz sene daha ya\u015fama iste\u011fini dillendirmeye nas\u0131l y\u00fcz\u00fcn tutuyor diyorlar bana. K\u0131zar\u0131yor zannetme y\u00fcz\u00fcm. Bu d\u00fcnya a\u011flar\u0131n\u0131 o kadar s\u0131k\u0131 \u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f ki her yan\u0131ma. Bu a\u011flar \u015fimdi bana birer hamak gibi geliyor. Biraz daha kalsam, biraz daha kalsam… Kalsam da yaksam birka\u00e7 c\u00e2n daha.. \u00d6yle mi haa? <\/span>
\n <\/span><\/div>\n

Ey c\u00e2n\u0131m, sevdi\u011fin \u015feyin pe\u015finden ne kadar ko\u015farsan ko\u015f, o sana y\u00e2r olmaz, ka\u00e7ar gider, diyorlar. Ben ise, seven sevdi\u011fine kavu\u015fur ve kavu\u015funca da ayr\u0131lmaz diyerek reddediyorum b\u00fct\u00fcn hoyrat teklifleri. Doluyorum iplerimi bir a\u011fac\u0131n etraf\u0131na ve ipin ucuna da kendimi ba\u011fl\u0131yorum ama nafile. Y\u00fczy\u0131ll\u0131k a\u011fa\u00e7 bile \u201cillallah\u201d deyip, k\u00f6klerinden inlemeye ba\u015fl\u0131yor bu ihtiras\u0131mdan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc. A\u011fa\u00e7 bile dayanam\u0131yor anlayaca\u011f\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131na insano\u011flunun ve benim bu ya\u015fama h\u0131rs\u0131m\u0131n. D\u00fcnyadaki vakitlerden arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n.<\/span>
\n <\/span>
\n\u201cSeni bir \u00f6m\u00fcr \u00e7ekti bu d\u00fcnya. Hep d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u00fczerinde, d\u00fcnyaya eziyet verdin. \u015eimdi, biraz da d\u00fcnyan\u0131n derinliklerinde kal. Kal da hisset, d\u00fcnya ne kadar eziyet \u00e7ekiyor bu ahmak insanl\u0131k y\u00fcz\u00fcnden. Belki, o zaman sen de d\u00fcnyaya destek olmak i\u00e7in arz\u0131n alt\u0131nda olman\u0131n daha efdal oldu\u011funu fehmedersin ve de arz\u0131n alt\u0131nda kalmay\u0131 kutsi bir vazife addedersin. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc, \u00fcste \u00e7\u0131kmak, \u00fcstte kalmak isteyenler \u00e7ok ama bu ya\u015fl\u0131 hanemizin ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcke destek olmak i\u00e7in altta ezilmeyi dileyen kimseler yok. Bencillik had safhada\u201d nidalar\u0131 geliyor derinlerden. Var m\u0131 duymak isteyen?<\/span>
\n <\/span>
\n“\u0130nsanlar Kabil olmaya daha yak\u0131n. Habil olmaya talip olanlar ise gitmeye meyyal. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc, Kabiller bu d\u00fcnyada m\u00fcreffeh. Bundand\u0131r ki, bitmesin istiyorlar bu fani hayat. Habiller ise bu d\u00fcnyada bir zindan i\u00e7re; onlar da Yusuf gibi sabrediyorlar bu \u00e7ilelerinin dolmas\u0131 i\u00e7in.” <\/span>
\nHep bunlar\u0131 m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yorum ve telkin ediyorum ruhuma. Biz hangisiyiz ey c\u00e2n? Kabil olup da, iki d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 da karartmaya m\u0131 daha yak\u0131n\u0131z, Habil olup da, bu d\u00fcnyadan aln\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ak\u0131yla kurtulmaya m\u0131 yoksa?<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nBu bencilli\u011fimizi bilen Biri oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in b\u0131rakmaz bana\/sana\/ona\/bize gitme vaktine ait karar\u0131 i\u015fte ey c\u00e2n\u2019\u0131m.<\/span>
\n <\/span><\/div>\n

Arz\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde, d\u00fcnyay\u0131 \u00e7ok fazla tema\u015fa etti\u011fimdendir ki, bu s\u00fcreden daha da uzun bir s\u00fcre, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n bu milyarlarca y\u0131ll\u0131k \u00e7ilesini anlamam i\u00e7in arz\u0131n derinliklerine b\u0131rak\u0131l\u0131yorum\/b\u0131rak\u0131laca\u011f\u0131z ve kal\u0131yorum\/kalaca\u011f\u0131m\/kalaca\u011f\u0131z orada.<\/span>
\n <\/span>
\nEtraf\u0131mda binlerce insan da bulam\u0131yorum. Ama iniltileri ula\u015f\u0131yor t\u00e2 buralara kadar, benden fersah fersah uzaklarda olsalar da. Buras\u0131, maddi s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131n delindi\u011fi bir yer. D\u00fcnyaya ait kurallar ge\u00e7ersiz burada. Bunun i\u00e7in, ya\u015fanan her an \u00e7ok daha elem verici.<\/span>
\n <\/span>
\nArz\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcndeki zevk, sefa, bazen de da\u011fda\u011fa ve niran, burada, yerin alt\u0131nda, tamamen feryada avdet ediyor ey c\u00e2n. Hem de bu, \u00f6yle feryad ki, \u00f6yle bir u\u011fultu ki, milyarlarca y\u0131l\u0131n getirdi\u011fi birikmeden kaynaklanan inan\u0131lmaz sars\u0131c\u0131, kulaklar\u0131 sa\u011f\u0131r eden, g\u00f6n\u00fclleri, zihinleri \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rman\u0131n raddesinden de \u00f6teye vard\u0131r\u0131yor. Sanki bir f\u00fcze rampas\u0131n\u0131n kalbinin merkezinden ate\u015flenmesi… Belki de daha \u00f6tesi.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nAnlatam\u0131yorum i\u015fte. Anlatmam i\u00e7in \u00f6lmem l\u00e2z\u0131m, de\u011fil mi?<\/span>
\n <\/span>
\n\u0130\u015fte h\u00e2l b\u00f6yle ey c\u00e2n…<\/span>
\n <\/span><\/div>\n

Her canl\u0131 bir zaman tadacak dendi bu meyveden. Ecel gelecekse -ki gelecek- ba\u015f a\u011fr\u0131sa ne olur, a\u011fr\u0131masa ne olur..! Her\u015fey o g\u00fcne de\u011fil mi bahane..<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\u015eimdi, m\u00fcsaadenle (bu bir nezaket, yoksa m\u00fcsaadene ne hacet..!) son kez \u00f6lmem l\u00e2z\u0131m. \u00d6l\u00fcp de dirilmem l\u00e2z\u0131m. \u00dczg\u00fcn\u00fcm c\u00e2n. Senden ayr\u0131lmak \u00e7ok zor ama ba\u015fa, tene, ruha geleni \u00e7ekmem l\u00e2z\u0131m.<\/span>
\n <\/span>
\nHo\u015f\u00e7akal ey c\u00e2n.<\/span><\/p>\n

Burak Cem<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00dczg\u00fcn\u00fcm ama ey c\u00e2n, m\u00fcsaadenle \u00f6lmem l\u00e2z\u0131m. B\u00e2ki kalmam i\u00e7in bu d\u00fcnyada bir mukavele yapmaya yana\u015fmad\u0131\/yana\u015fm\u0131yor kimse. Yalvar yakar vazge\u00e7iremiyorum kimseyi. Vazge\u00e7irsem de nafile de\u011fil mi sanki? Her \u015fey f\u00e2nilerin elinde mi? S\u00f6zle\u015fmeyi d\u00fcnyaya gelmeden yapmad\u0131k m\u0131 biz? Bir y\u00fcz sene daha ya\u015fasam diyorum ama nafile. Bir y\u00fcz sene daha ya\u015fama iste\u011fini dillendirmeye nas\u0131l y\u00fcz\u00fcn…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":15944,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[212,144,210],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15933","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-burak-cem","category-edeb","category-mayis-23","category-212","category-144","category-210","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/pexels-media-1590551-1684977578234-scaled.jpeg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15933"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=15933"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15933\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15956,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15933\/revisions\/15956"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/15944"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=15933"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=15933"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=15933"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}