Kafas\u0131ndaki bigudilerin yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zm\u00fc\u015f, yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015f olan kad\u0131n \u00e7ocuk park\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Elindeki cep telefonuna do\u011fru kafas\u0131n\u0131 iyice e\u011fdi\u011finden olsa gerek, kad\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc se\u00e7ebilmek imkans\u0131zd\u0131. Di\u011fer eliyle pazar arabas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u00fcyordu. Pazar arabas\u0131 deyip ge\u00e7memek gerek; bu \u015feyin tekerlekleri kad\u0131n\u0131n hem arkas\u0131nda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 39 numaral\u0131k ayak izlerini, hem de onun \u015fi\u015fmanca g\u00f6lgesini ezerek geliyordu :<\/p>\n
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\u201c\u00d6n\u00fcne baksana yenge! Az daha a\u011faca \u00e7arp\u0131yodun. Ulan bu ya\u015fta telefon sizin neyinize be? \u015e\u015ft \u0130bo yengeye bak, h\u00e2l\u00e2 telefonuna bakarak y\u00fcr\u00fcyo lan!\u201d<\/p>\n
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Bigudili kad\u0131n ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda yamulup gitmi\u015f olan plastik \u00e7ocuk arabalar\u0131ndan habersiz, park i\u00e7erisinde ilerlemeye devam ediyordu. Bir ara \u00e7ocuklardan birinin \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da duyulmu\u015ftu. N\u2019aps\u0131n zavall\u0131 \u00e7ocuk? O tombul bacaklar\u0131n att\u0131\u011f\u0131 sert ad\u0131mlar alt\u0131nda ezilmesi neredeyse an meselesiydi. Kad\u0131n \u201c\u00c7imlere basmay\u0131n\u0131z\u201d tabelas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi gibi, park\u0131n g\u00fcvenlik g\u00f6revlisinden gelen:<\/p>\n
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\u201cAbla bu ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 be? Polis \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131cam art\u0131k.\u201d laflar\u0131n\u0131 da hi\u00e7 duymam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
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\u0130lerleyi\u015fleri devam ededursun, birka\u00e7 dakika sonra bir anda \u201cHhhh!\u201d yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Pazar<\/p>\n
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arabas\u0131n\u0131 oldu\u011fu gibi yan taraf\u0131ndaki kum havuzuna b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc. Bo\u015ftaki kolunu s\u0131zlayan bacaklar\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcp dizlerini ovalamaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Tam bu s\u0131rada kafas\u0131n\u0131 kararmaya ba\u015flayan bulutlara \u00e7evirmi\u015f, surat\u0131n\u0131 da ek\u015fitmi\u015fti. Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 f\u0131s\u0131r f\u0131s\u0131r a\u00e7\u0131p kapatm\u0131\u015f, ancak bulutlara yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 sata\u015fmay\u0131 daha fazla uzatmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hem niye uzats\u0131nd\u0131 ki? Do\u011fruyu s\u00f6ylemek gerekirse, kimse onu eltisinin az \u00f6nce \u0130nstagram’da payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6nderisinin alt\u0131na yaz\u0131lan yorumlardan al\u0131koyamazd\u0131. Normal zamanlarda bu dizler ona y\u00fcr\u00fcyecek mecal b\u0131rakmazd\u0131 ama eltisinin payla\u015f\u0131m\u0131na gelen be\u011feni say\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmek ona ila\u00e7 gibi gelmi\u015fti:<\/p>\n
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\u201c Oh valla bu saatten sonra romatizman\u0131n babas\u0131 gelse umrumda de\u011fil. Ayol benim be\u011feniler sabahtan beri oldu y\u00fcz, \u015eaziye’ninse daha otuza bile gelmedi.\u201d demi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
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B\u0131raksalar davul zurna olmadan \u015furac\u0131kta g\u00f6bek atmaya ba\u015flard\u0131. Ger\u00e7i g\u00f6r\u00fcmcesiyle k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kayn\u0131n\u0131n ismini \u201cg\u00f6nderiyi be\u011fenenler listesinde\u201d g\u00f6r\u00fcnce biraz i\u00e7erlemi\u015fti ama olsun. Nas\u0131l olsa bu \u2018be\u011feni say\u0131s\u0131\u2019 art\u0131k \u015funu kesin olarak ispatl\u0131yordu ki, bundan b\u00f6yle ba\u015fta eltileri olmak \u00fczere konu kom\u015fu, h\u0131s\u0131m akraba, – kendisinden ba\u015fka kimler varsa- sosyal medyada ancak avu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 yalayabilirlerdi. Ohhh, d\u00fc\u015fmanlar\u0131 \u00e7atlas\u0131nd\u0131. Bu s\u00f6zlerle yetinmedi tabi. Yumruk yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ellerini \u00fcst \u00fcste koyup, birbiri \u00fczerine vurmaya kalkt\u0131. Kad\u0131n\u0131n bu hareketini g\u00f6ren parktaki baz\u0131 ki\u015filerin kendi aralar\u0131nda:<\/p>\n
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\u201cKad\u0131n kendini Tellio\u011fullar\u0131 ile Sefero\u011fullar\u0131\u2019n\u0131n kar\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n gitti\u011fi hamamda zannediyor herhalde.\u201d diye konu\u015ftuklar\u0131 duyuldu.<\/p>\n
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Sol avucunu tombul diz kapaklar\u0131ndaki a\u011fr\u0131ya g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcp, g\u00f6zlerini etrafa \u00e7evirdi. Hele uygun bir bank bulursa ilk i\u015fi bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 uzat\u0131p yay\u0131lmak olacakt\u0131. Fakat hemen hemen b\u00fct\u00fcn oturma yerleri kad\u0131n ve \u00e7ocuk kayn\u0131yordu. \u00d6fledi. Yava\u015f\u00e7a ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki betona \u00e7\u00f6melmeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ama az ilerde bacak bacak \u00fcst\u00fcne atm\u0131\u015f bir gen\u00e7 k\u0131z\u0131n oturdu\u011fu bank\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce bundan vazge\u00e7ti. Her iki baca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 eliyle ovalaya ovalaya o tarafa do\u011fru gitti.<\/p>\n
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Bigudili kad\u0131n, gri bulutlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan yar\u0131m yamalak kendini g\u00f6steren havan\u0131n ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda k\u0131zla herhangi bir muhabbete girmeden bank\u0131n sa\u011f taraf\u0131na oturmu\u015ftu. Kar\u015f\u0131dan pek anlayamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama yak\u0131ndan bak\u0131nca k\u0131z\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7illerle dolu oldu\u011funu fark etti. Ayr\u0131ca bu k\u0131z\u0131n morali de yoktu sanki, beti benzi desen soluktu. Kad\u0131n: \u201cGene de \u00e7\u0131t\u0131 p\u0131t\u0131 bi \u015fey i\u015fte.\u201d demi\u015fti i\u00e7inden. Ard\u0131ndan kafas\u0131n\u0131 tekrar \u00f6n\u00fcne d\u00f6n\u00fcp t\u00fcm dikkatini telefonuna verdi. Ekranda tombul i\u015faret parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dola\u015ft\u0131rarak bir yar\u0131m saat ge\u00e7irdikten sonra s\u0131ra rutin selfielerine gelmi\u015fti:<\/p>\n
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-Romatizmaya inat ben!<\/p>\n
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-Bacaklar\u0131m\u0131 ovarken ben!<\/p>\n
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-Ak\u015fama takip\u00e7ilerime yemek tarifi payla\u015fmadan \u00f6nce ben!<\/p>\n
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Ard arda kendisini farkl\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lardan be\u015f- alt\u0131 kez \u00e7ektikten sonra omuzlar\u0131n\u0131 geriye do\u011fru verdi. Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ifade g\u00f6r\u00fclmeye de\u011ferdi. B\u00fcy\u00fck \u015firketlerin CEO\u2019lar\u0131n\u0131n girdi\u011fi haller gibi bir haller vard\u0131 \u00fczerinde. G\u00f6zl\u00fcklerini burnunun \u00fcst\u00fcnde ileri geri hareket ettirip duruyordu. Tam bacak bacak \u00fczerine de at\u0131yordu ki, elindeki telefon bir anda \u00e7almaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Arayan o\u011fluydu. Sesi \u00e7atall\u0131, fazlas\u0131yla da \u00f6fkeliydi. Annesine , sabah \u00fct\u00fcs\u00fcz g\u00f6mlekle gidince i\u015fyerindekilerin kendisine g\u00fcld\u00fcklerinden, buzdolab\u0131nda yiyecek hi\u00e7bir \u015fey kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan falan bahsediyordu. Annesi eve ne zaman gelmek isterse gelsinmi\u015f, zaten bir \u015fekilde kendi karn\u0131n\u0131 doyurabilirmi\u015f vs. Bigudili kad\u0131n hoparl\u00f6re verdi\u011fi bu sesleri hem duyuyor, hem de Whatsapp’\u0131na gelen yeni mesajlar\u0131 inceliyordu. Ha bir de arada, po\u015fetindeki po\u011fa\u00e7alardan birer iki\u015fer a\u011fz\u0131na at\u0131p, do\u011fru d\u00fczg\u00fcn \u00e7i\u011fnemeden, h\u0131zl\u0131ca yutuyordu. \u0130\u011fneden ipli\u011fe t\u00fcm \u00f6fkesini kusan bu \u00e7ocukca\u011f\u0131z\u0131n duyabildi\u011fi tek ses, annesinin bo\u011faz\u0131nda kalan lokmalar\u0131n ortaya \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fckt\u00fc. Birka\u00e7 dakika ge\u00e7ti, ge\u00e7medi ki telefondaki bu erkek sesi de duyulmaz olmu\u015ftu. G\u00f6r\u00fcnen o ki, telefon kad\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne kapanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Kad\u0131n birazdan magazine dair bildirimlere ge\u00e7ti. \u00d6zellikle \u00fcnl\u00fclerin en yeni bo\u015fanma haberlerinden bir geli\u015fme var m\u0131 diye bakt\u0131. Bakt\u0131 da pek i\u015fe yarar bir \u015fey bulamay\u0131nca, Whatsapp yaz\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131na geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Son mesaja da cevap yazd\u0131ktan sonra kad\u0131n, bir anda panikleyip, elini aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fa sola tela\u015fl\u0131 bi\u00e7imde sallamaya ba\u015flad\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc akl\u0131na bug\u00fcn\u00fcn Tiktok videosunu hen\u00fcz \u00e7ekmedi\u011fi gelmi\u015fti. Kara kara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00d6nceki videolar\u0131n\u0131 akl\u0131na getirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. D\u00fcn mesela yelpazeyle g\u00f6be\u011fini serinletme videosu \u00e7ekmi\u015fti. \u00d6nceki g\u00fcn de sa\u00e7\u0131ndaki bigudileri g\u00f6sterip: \u201cBen h\u00e2l\u00e2 90\u2019lar\u0131n kad\u0131n\u0131y\u0131m. H\u00e2l\u00e2 ate\u015fli, ihtirasl\u0131y\u0131m.. \u201d gibisinden \u015fark\u0131lar m\u0131r\u0131ldanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Takip\u00e7ilerden gelen d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fler hi\u00e7 de fena de\u011fildi. Bug\u00fcn de bir yerlerden bomba etki yaratacak bir \u015feyler bulmal\u0131yd\u0131 ama nereden?<\/p>\n
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\u0130\u015fte bu esnada yan\u0131ndaki k\u0131z\u0131n kuca\u011f\u0131nda duran g\u00fcl buketi dikkatini \u00e7ekti. Bu g\u00fcller keskin k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131dand\u0131, yapraklar\u0131 yumru gibi s\u0131r ta\u015f\u0131yanlardan. G\u00fcllerin etraf\u0131 renkli naylonla, bir de k\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131klanm\u0131\u015f rafyalarla s\u00fcsl\u00fcyd\u00fc. Kad\u0131n her yerde kad\u0131nd\u0131r. D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn bulsa g\u00f6\u011fe merdiven dayar, al\u0131n pulun kokusunu duysa mutlaka bir \u015fekilde burnunu sokar. Kad\u0131n da onu yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Burnunun ucuna d\u00fc\u015fen kemik g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc tekrar geriye itip, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir dikkatle g\u00fclleri seyretmi\u015fti. Buketin \u00fczerine ili\u015ftirilmi\u015f olan \u201cHer\u015feyimsin\u201d yaz\u0131l\u0131 kart\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce g\u00f6zleri parlad\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131n kula\u011f\u0131na do\u011fru hafif\u00e7e e\u011filip:<\/p>\n
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\u201cK\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z\u0131m o \u00e7i\u00e7ekler kimden, sevdi\u011finden mi?\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n
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\u201cHi\u00e7bir \u015feyimden!\u201d<\/p>\n
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S\u00f6z yumruk gibiydi, k\u0131z\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc ise k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131. Fakat nedense bu yumruk s\u00f6zler Bigudili kad\u0131n\u0131n umrunda de\u011fildi. Hemen bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da telefonun kameras\u0131na davrand\u0131:<\/p>\n
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\u201c \u2018Hi\u00e7bir \u015feyden gelen g\u00fcllerle ben! Duydunuz mu ayol? Ben de istiyorum b\u00f6yle hi\u00e7bir \u015feyler. Yaz\u0131n yorumlara\u2026.\u201d<\/p>\n
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Videonun gerisini getirememi\u015fti. Yan\u0131ndaki k\u0131z bir anda elindeki buketi sert bi\u00e7imde kuca\u011f\u0131ndan yere f\u0131rlat\u0131nca kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z ister istemez kameray\u0131 kapatmak zorunda kald\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7enesi titriyordu. Konu\u015fmak istemedi\u011fi belliydi ama tutamad\u0131 kendini:<\/p>\n
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\u201cTeyze senin i\u015fin g\u00fcc\u00fcn yok mu, ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda kad\u0131ns\u0131n? Bu \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi \u015fimdi \u00e7\u00f6pe at\u0131cam zaten.\u201d<\/p>\n
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Bigudili kad\u0131n t\u00fcm bunlardan sonra donup kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Halbuki yan\u0131na ilk oturuverdi\u011finde bu k\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z han\u0131m han\u0131mc\u0131k bir \u015fey gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc g\u00f6zlerine. Demek ki g\u00fcvenmeyecekti b\u00f6ylelerine. Me\u011fer ne fettan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorlard\u0131. Yine de alttan al\u0131p:<\/p>\n
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\u201cSen beni yanl\u0131\u015f anlay\u0131verdin k\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z\u0131m\u201d gibisinden bir iki laf edivermi\u015fti ama bakt\u0131 ki k\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6fkeli bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 dinmek bilmiyor; mecburen a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n fermuar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekip, elindeki telefonla oynamaya devam etti. On dakika ge\u00e7memi\u015fti ki k\u0131z \u00e7antas\u0131ndan bir roman \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Kad\u0131n g\u00f6z ucuyla kitab\u0131n kapa\u011f\u0131na bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u201cGrinin G\u00f6lgesi\u201d yaz\u0131s\u0131yla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Art\u0131k bundan sonras\u0131nda dakikalar ne kadar ilerlemi\u015fti, ikisi de fark\u0131nda de\u011fildi. G\u00fcne\u015f g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131rp\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131k\u00e7a oturduklar\u0131 yerden g\u00f6lgeleri iyice uzamaya durmu\u015ftu. Bigudili kad\u0131n yaz\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131na, astroloji yorumlar\u0131na, dizi fragmanlar\u0131n\u0131 izlemeye \u00f6ylesine dalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki ikindi vaktinin geldi\u011fini ancak elindeki telefon durduk yere kapan\u0131nca fark etti. \u201cOff, t\u00fch, Euzu billahi…\u201d bir \u015feyler diye diye telefonu kendine getirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama nafile. Lanet olsundu. Son zamanlarda bu hep oluyordu zaten. Hele bu kez durum daha da vahimdi galiba. Yumruklar\u0131yla elindeki cihaz\u0131 par\u00e7alamaya ant i\u00e7mi\u015f gibiydi. \u00c7evredekiler taraf\u0131ndan:<\/p>\n
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\u201cYahu nas\u0131l bozulursun sen ya? \u00c7\u00f6pe at\u0131cam seni, g\u00f6rceksin\u201d, gibi bir \u015feyler dedi\u011fi duyuldu. Ancak yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndaki k\u0131z duyuvermemi\u015fti bunu. Kulakl\u0131k vard\u0131 kulaklar\u0131nda. K\u0131zla ilgili bir detay daha vard\u0131 ki; h\u00e2l\u00e2 ‘hi\u00e7bir \u015fey’inden gelen g\u00fcl buketini kuca\u011f\u0131nda tutuyor, parmaklar\u0131yla g\u00fcl\u00fcn dikenlerini ok\u015fuyordu.<\/p>\n
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Kad\u0131n yava\u015f\u00e7a bozuk telefonunu \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n g\u00f6z\u00fcne yerle\u015ftirmi\u015fti. N\u2019apacakt\u0131 \u015fimdi telefonsuz? Mecburen avu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 yanaklar\u0131na, dirseklerini de dizine do\u011fru g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr ederken akl\u0131na \u00e7antas\u0131ndaki o\u011flunun askerlik foto\u011fraf\u0131 geldi. \u00c7antas\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7 fermuar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekip, foto\u011fraf\u0131 bir g\u00fczel eline ald\u0131. Hah, ele g\u00fcne kar\u015f\u0131 att\u0131\u011f\u0131 havan\u0131n ayn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 atman\u0131n zaman\u0131 gelmi\u015fti. Yan\u0131ndaki k\u0131za yan g\u00f6zle bak\u0131p sesini bir miktar y\u00fckseltti. \u0130\u015faret parma\u011f\u0131yla o\u011flunun y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc, elindeki t\u00fcfe\u011fi ok\u015fuyordu:<\/p>\n
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\u201cA anas\u0131n\u0131n kuzusu. Okudu adam oldu ma\u015fallah. Mahallenin en yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131s\u0131 olunca soran da \u00e7ok oluyo. Alimallah hain k\u0131zlardan biri g\u00f6z koycak da elimden alcak diye \u00f6d\u00fcm kopuyo\u201d dedi. Bunlar\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti de nafile. K\u0131z kula\u011f\u0131ndan h\u00e2l\u00e2 o \u015feyi \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015f de\u011fildi. Ayr\u0131ca g\u00f6zleri p\u00fcr dikkat kitaptayd\u0131. Fakat bir gariplik vard\u0131 sanki. Bigudili kad\u0131n fark etmemi\u015fti ama dikkatle bakan herkes k\u0131z\u0131n hep ayn\u0131 sayfay\u0131 okudu\u011funu anlayabilirdi. Ya da okumay\u0131p, bo\u015f bo\u015f bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n
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\u201cC\u0131k!\u201d dedi kad\u0131n. \u201cZaten surats\u0131z\u0131n teki. \u00dcstelik dili de uzun. Benim o\u011flum kala kala bu k\u0131za m\u0131 kald\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n
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\u201cBir \u015fey mi dedin teyze?\u201d<\/p>\n
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\u201cYok k\u0131z\u0131m. Po\u011fa\u00e7adan az\u0131c\u0131k alsana diyecektim.\u201d<\/p>\n
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Demek nihayet kulakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Az \u00f6nceki asabiyetinden de eser yoktu. K\u0131z po\u011fa\u00e7alardan iki tanesini yerken kitab\u0131 yan taraf\u0131na, kad\u0131nla kendisinin aras\u0131na koydu. Kad\u0131n da po\u011fa\u00e7a ikram\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131nda o\u011flunun foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131n kitab\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na koymu\u015ftu. \u0130leriden bak\u0131nca soldan sa\u011fa; bigudili kad\u0131n, askerlik foto\u011fraf\u0131, \u201cGrinin G\u00f6lgesi\u201d isimli kitap ve gen\u00e7 k\u0131z yan yana dizilmi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n
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Biraz sonra yan\u0131 ba\u015flar\u0131nda, elinde not ka\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131 ve dolma kalemiyle gencecik bir delikanl\u0131 bitivermi\u015fti. Yenice berberden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00fcyordu; j\u00f6lesi, tra\u015f\u0131 yerindeydi. \u201cMerhaba\u201ds\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131ndan h\u0131zl\u0131ca tan\u0131tm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kendisini: \u00dcniversite \u00f6\u011frencisiymi\u015f. Bitirme tezi \u00fczerinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yormu\u015f ve bu \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 gere\u011fi, bir aydan uzun bir s\u00fcredir sokaktaki insanlarla anket yap\u0131yormu\u015f. Bu bigudili kad\u0131n ve gen\u00e7 k\u0131z kusura bakmamal\u0131ym\u0131\u015flar. Onlara sadece bir soru sorup gidecekmi\u015f. Zaten kimliklerini beyan etmelerine de gerek yokmu\u015f:<\/p>\n
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\u201cSor evlad\u0131m. Merak ettim bak \u015fimdi.\u201d<\/p>\n
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\u201c Tamam teyzecim. Sorum \u015fu: Sizin hayatta en de\u011fer verdi\u011finiz, olmazsa olmaz dedi\u011finiz \u015fey nedir?\u201d<\/p>\n
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Bigudili kad\u0131n soruyu be\u011fenmi\u015f olacak ki \u00f6nce o\u011flana g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi, ard\u0131ndan da yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndaki foto\u011fraf\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131ca al\u0131p delikanl\u0131ya g\u00f6sterdi. Bunu g\u00f6ren delikanl\u0131 hemen elindeki form ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131n\u0131n \u2018Evlat\u2019 hanesine tik att\u0131. \u00c7ocukca\u011f\u0131z\u0131n kad\u0131nla i\u015fi bitmi\u015fti asl\u0131nda. Fakat nedense bigudili kad\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocu\u011fu b\u0131rakas\u0131 yoktu. Sanki nefesine \u00e7entik atm\u0131\u015flar gibi derinden ve k\u0131r\u00e7\u0131lla\u015farak bir \u015feyler daha s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti orac\u0131kta. Kad\u0131n \u00f6nce yumruk yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 sa\u011f elini \u00f6pm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Daha sonra da s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 dayad\u0131\u011f\u0131 tahta bank\u0131n arka taraf\u0131na iki kez vurup:<\/p>\n
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\u201c \u015eeytan kula\u011f\u0131na kur\u015fun.\u201d demi\u015fti. \u201cSana yeminle s\u00f6yl\u00fcyom. O\u011flumun \u015funcac\u0131k resmi yan\u0131mda olmasa aha bak \u015furac\u0131kta \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fcm ben \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fcm. \u00d6yle bakma o\u011flum, anay\u0131m ben ana! \u201d Delikanl\u0131n\u0131n \u201cAllah korusun\u2019lu\u201d, \u201cAman teyzem a\u011fz\u0131ndan yel als\u0131n\u201dl\u0131 c\u00fcmleler s\u0131ralad\u0131\u011f\u0131 duyulmu\u015ftu pe\u015fi s\u0131ra. Anla\u015f\u0131lan bigudili kad\u0131n laf\u0131n\u0131 bitirecek de\u011fildi. O\u011flanda ise duydu\u011fu bu ard\u0131 ard\u0131na c\u00fcmleleri dinleyecek sab\u0131r yoktu. Bu y\u00fczden vaktinin kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, birazdan otob\u00fcse yeti\u015fmesi gerekti\u011fini falan s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Sonra da h\u0131zla bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bigudili kad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki gen\u00e7 k\u0131za \u00e7evirmi\u015fti. K\u0131za da ayn\u0131 soruyu sordu. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 cevap kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda k\u0131sa bir alk\u0131\u015f tutarak:<\/p>\n
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\u201cBravo\u201d dedi\u011fi duyuldu. \u201cSizin i\u00e7in de \u2018Kitap\u2019 hanesine tik at\u0131yorum. Elinizdeki roman\u0131 ben de okumu\u015ftum. Ger\u00e7ekten efsanedir. Rus yazarlardan birisine aitti galiba. O yazar\u0131n ba\u015fka bir roman\u0131 daha var, onu da okudum. Ge\u00e7ende Kapal\u0131\u00e7ar\u015f\u0131’daki sahaflardan birinde ciddi oranda indirim vard\u0131. Oradan alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m\u2026\u2026 Bu arada kuca\u011f\u0131n\u0131zdaki g\u00fcller \u00e7ok g\u00fczel g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor.\u201d<\/p>\n
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Anla\u015f\u0131lan bu kez delikanl\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7enesi a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ancak k\u0131zla yapt\u0131klar\u0131 minik muhabbeti getire getire g\u00fcllere getirince, do\u011fal olarak sohbet orada kesiliverdi. Surat\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fen k\u0131z o esnada:<\/p>\n
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\u201cKitaplar\u0131m olmadan asla!\u201d demi\u015fti bast\u0131ra bast\u0131ra. Bu c\u00fcmlenin tonlamas\u0131n\u0131 orac\u0131kta kim duysa, \u201cSana ne! Seni ilgilendirmez.\u201d manas\u0131n\u0131 kolayl\u0131kla anlay\u0131p, kibarca s\u0131v\u0131\u015fabilirdi. Delikanl\u0131 da \u00f6yle yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7\u00f6pe at\u0131lacak oldu\u011fu s\u00f6ylenen bu g\u00fcllere son kez bakt\u0131. Anket i\u00e7in te\u015fekk\u00fcr ettikten sonra po\u011fa\u00e7alardan \u0131s\u0131r\u0131k alarak yanlar\u0131ndan ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n
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Bir s\u00fcre sonra ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcndeki me\u015fe dal\u0131n\u0131n yapraklar\u0131ndan, ya\u011fmur damlalar\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark ettiler. G\u00f6k g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcne, \u015fim\u015fe\u011fe bak\u0131l\u0131rsa bu ya\u011fmurun \u015fiddetlenmesi kesindi. K\u0131z, durmadan eline bat\u0131p duran dikenli buketle sessizce kalkarken, bigudili kad\u0131n\u0131n \u201cVallaha bi oturdum kalkamad\u0131m. Of anam, nedir bendeki bu dizler?\u201d dedi\u011fi duyuldu. Bir yandan da \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n g\u00f6z\u00fcndeki telefonu son bir kez kontrol etti\u011fi g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. \u0130kisi de sessiz sedas\u0131z, arkalar\u0131na bakmadan parktan ayr\u0131ld\u0131lar. Peki bir \u015feyler unutmu\u015f olabilirler miydi?<\/p>\n
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Sabah olunca belediyenin \u00e7\u00f6p\u00e7\u00fcleri birer iki\u015fer parka dolu\u015ftular. G\u00fcne\u015f h\u0131zla g\u00f6kte y\u00fckseliyor, ak\u015famki ya\u011fmurdan eser b\u0131rakmayacak oranda park\u0131 \u0131s\u0131t\u0131yordu. Biraz sonra az biraz \u00e7ocuklar, anneler de gelmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. D\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00fcniversiteli delikanl\u0131 da erkenciydi. Elinde ka\u011f\u0131t dosyalar\u0131yla park kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n giri\u015finde g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Anla\u015f\u0131lan bug\u00fcn de epey bir anket i\u015fi vard\u0131. Kum havuzunun yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7erken, orada devrilip kalm\u0131\u015f bir pazar arabas\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Muhtemelen \u015fu etrafa sa\u00e7\u0131lan sebze ve meyveler de bu pazar arabas\u0131ndan d\u00f6k\u00fclenlerdi. \u00c7\u00f6p\u00e7\u00fclerden biri elindeki \u00e7al\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcrgesiyle bunlar\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. Delikanl\u0131 istemeden (belki de isteyerek) \u00e7\u00f6p\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fcn kendi kendine konu\u015fmas\u0131na kulak misafiri olmu\u015ftu:<\/p>\n
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\u201cBu kad\u0131n bi g\u00fcn burda bi \u015fey unutmasa di\u015fimi k\u0131r\u0131cam.\u201d<\/p>\n
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Delikanl\u0131 ard arda dizilmi\u015f banklar boyunca ilerlemeye devam etmi\u015fti. Me\u015fe a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki boyas\u0131, cilas\u0131 kaybolmu\u015f olan banka gelince bir anl\u0131k durdu. Bank\u0131n \u00fczerindeki gri kapak tasar\u0131ml\u0131 kitapla, yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131ndaki tekmil vermi\u015f bir askerin foto\u011fraf\u0131na bak\u0131p kald\u0131. Ellerine ald\u0131 onlar\u0131. Gece boyu ya\u011fan ya\u011fmurun onlar\u0131 hamurla\u015ft\u0131rmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f olmalar\u0131na az biraz kederlendi. Fakat \u00f6yle koyuvermedi hemen kendini. Zira \u00e7oktand\u0131r ona, tez hocas\u0131na yaranmak i\u00e7in bir malzeme laz\u0131md\u0131. Zihninde ampuller yand\u0131, s\u00f6nd\u00fc. Acaba, dedi; elimdeki \u0131slaklarla ayn\u0131 karede bir poz verip sosyal medyaya koysam, \u00fcstelik alt\u0131na da sabah sabah akl\u0131ma gelen \u015fu bilgece laf\u0131 soku\u015ftursam nas\u0131l olur?<\/p>\n
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\u201cHayatta en de\u011fer verdiklerinizi, ya\u011fmurun gri g\u00f6lgesi alt\u0131nda pa\u00e7avraya d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Kafas\u0131ndaki bigudilerin yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zm\u00fc\u015f, yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015f olan kad\u0131n \u00e7ocuk park\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Elindeki cep telefonuna do\u011fru kafas\u0131n\u0131 iyice e\u011fdi\u011finden olsa gerek, kad\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc se\u00e7ebilmek imkans\u0131zd\u0131. Di\u011fer eliyle pazar arabas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u00fcyordu. Pazar arabas\u0131 deyip ge\u00e7memek gerek; bu \u015feyin tekerlekleri kad\u0131n\u0131n hem arkas\u0131nda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 39 numaral\u0131k ayak izlerini, hem de onun \u015fi\u015fmanca g\u00f6lgesini ezerek geliyordu :…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":15470,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[144,207,161],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15864","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-edeb","category-nisan-23","category-tubasinaaydin","category-144","category-207","category-161","description-off"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/jan-willem-FobwhDUgdrk-unsplash-e1676767764538.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15864"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=15864"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15864\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15905,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15864\/revisions\/15905"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/15470"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=15864"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=15864"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/korpekalemler.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=15864"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}